Why the arse-kicking? Love back.
Maven Huggins November 17 at 5:12am
girl. if you dont know the answer to that K, you are lucky, but people who insist on living with their back and nose straight, by hard principles and uncompromised lines, will always get their asses kicked
more specifically, for me to be 45 and did all i did in life, becoming a phd so i can be independent and not depend on anyone, guess where i am...with nothing, no home and having to depend on people who do not give a shit about me. to be unemployed after all that work and investment. trying to make my way with nothing...that is the ass kicking...and having to move ---=and find my own place with nothing...an ass kicking
doing all of that and have the standards of queen of sheba. ass kicking
more specifically, for me to be 45 and did all i did in life, becoming a phd so i can be independent and not depend on anyone, guess where i am...with nothing, no home and having to depend on people who do not give a shit about me. to be unemployed after all that work and investment. trying to make my way with nothing...that is the ass kicking...and having to move ---=and find my own place with nothing...an ass kicking
doing all of that and have the standards of queen of sheba. ass kicking
Wow. That's an incredible amount of work and studies. You are certainly on that chapter of leadership from all that you know and understand - not everyone's mind is as sharp!! The packaging we are invited to believe didn't work for many and the design is outdated and quite faulty. In my time researching healing and wellness for the past several years I came across some interesting 'fellas'...at a 'Women's Financial Conference'. They spoke of an interesting approach to finances and business here in America...and they were FAR from wholesome or even Spiritual...they were more what I would categorize as 'takers'. They spoke of the non-profit structures in the American financial market and buying foreclosed properties and some other ish they were trying to sell. They impacted me...not only for what they suggested about non profits, a way for intelligent people to go for their cause and have the financial benefits, but I was still super curious about this group of all men, actually, marketing to a Women's financial 'empowerment' seminar endorsed by Fergie as an opening guest speaker. I looked around the room, a lot of elderly people...the men didn't so much care as have some solid sales strategy. When I left I looked them up. It was fascinating. I found out they are a tiered coorperation, meaning each time they sell one course or one class it is its own component until that pitch to that seminar is over then it would be collapsed into the tiered coorporation. They were based in Utah and marketing to California. Before I knew that I had volunteered to be trained by them...they were so smart, their talks included how you could, if you had the money, actually buy recently foreclosed homes and let the tennants stay in them and sell them back to the tennants after they got on their feet (or buy them up with no humanitarian persuits, of course, was also suggested). When I turned them down for the free 'training'...they got mob-ish with me. Pushy, pushy, pushy. I got pushy back and made sure they heard my no, thank you, I have changed my mind, but thank you so much. They squirmed that they couldn't control me - not like the sweet granny who had bought $2000 worth of crap she didn't need, chasing security after her retirement offered little. I watched these slick fuckers with an Eagle eye. If they can do it...I thought, we can. We wisdom keepers...we women, we people who care. There's no doubt we are as smart. The focus on their goal was like none other. I thought, wow, if these people were integral, it may have changed my life...well it did anyway, but I determined to be that smart, and then to find a way to use it for myself, my happiness, my art.
I did hear how very competitive the PhD scholars have it from bureaucracy and politics...it sounds very painful...one fellow who spoke about it, yes, lol, a fellow, explained similar hurtful things. What I find, though, is that if you are wise in spirit you surpass the template given to you, provided for you by the scholars. When we surpass something that great, we inherit the designer position...I know you know that...literally, the day we see through all of the structures means we have inherited leadership to re-design our world...including burning that those structures were ever meant to anything but provide some age old, intricate knowledge.
One of the exercises I had to do in an acting class once, which I failed the first time, was to spend FRIVOLOUSLY, one million dollars. No money could be spent on the practical. I didn't even understand dreaming, or frivolous in this context, lol. To this day, I will remember that and I, now, claim my ability to dream those frivolous, non rational dreams. I went back and did it...and I listed new things...like having Cirque Du Solei flown in...my house turned into a garden complete with grass, moss, trees...it was just a start. I found myself on the 'dream' theme later in my Shaman retreats when we covered the themes of limitless possibilities. I know the point isn't to be lofty or not see with our heart the aching people, but it's simply to feed us, to ensure we're happy.
I see you as able to create a whole school, Maven...a book or books, a congress woman...if the political or sales bugga-boos do it with their selfish intent and eat well WITH property, then I am sure you can. I assure you, Southern California has been INCREDIBLE to teach me about this branding stuff...it's the female entrepreneurs way and I love learning it...identifying purpose, designing it, seeking funding, newsletters, announcements...
I hope my stories, in the least, assisted in some way...I could have summed it up to say, I hope the best things for you and I know you can do it. Right now...not having a house means you are free, some are not as lucky, lol!!
I did hear how very competitive the PhD scholars have it from bureaucracy and politics...it sounds very painful...one fellow who spoke about it, yes, lol, a fellow, explained similar hurtful things. What I find, though, is that if you are wise in spirit you surpass the template given to you, provided for you by the scholars. When we surpass something that great, we inherit the designer position...I know you know that...literally, the day we see through all of the structures means we have inherited leadership to re-design our world...including burning that those structures were ever meant to anything but provide some age old, intricate knowledge.
One of the exercises I had to do in an acting class once, which I failed the first time, was to spend FRIVOLOUSLY, one million dollars. No money could be spent on the practical. I didn't even understand dreaming, or frivolous in this context, lol. To this day, I will remember that and I, now, claim my ability to dream those frivolous, non rational dreams. I went back and did it...and I listed new things...like having Cirque Du Solei flown in...my house turned into a garden complete with grass, moss, trees...it was just a start. I found myself on the 'dream' theme later in my Shaman retreats when we covered the themes of limitless possibilities. I know the point isn't to be lofty or not see with our heart the aching people, but it's simply to feed us, to ensure we're happy.
I see you as able to create a whole school, Maven...a book or books, a congress woman...if the political or sales bugga-boos do it with their selfish intent and eat well WITH property, then I am sure you can. I assure you, Southern California has been INCREDIBLE to teach me about this branding stuff...it's the female entrepreneurs way and I love learning it...identifying purpose, designing it, seeking funding, newsletters, announcements...
I hope my stories, in the least, assisted in some way...I could have summed it up to say, I hope the best things for you and I know you can do it. Right now...not having a house means you are free, some are not as lucky, lol!!
Maven Huggins November 17 at 10:24pm
your mail response is peculiar Kahshanna. I hear you. I read it. You are minding me. calling to me. Directing me...I receive...
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me to Kahshanna as I consider Apollonia, and our conversation, this night...!
this was so significant...
and i had a talk tonight with another good friend here..telling me i am on an ancestral journey and maybe the doctor i was to be was not of economics and the phd but of spiritual healing for others...and here i come home to this...interesting
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me to Kahshanna as I consider Apollonia, and our conversation, this night...!
this was so significant...
and i had a talk tonight with another good friend here..telling me i am on an ancestral journey and maybe the doctor i was to be was not of economics and the phd but of spiritual healing for others...and here i come home to this...interesting
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