Surrender: To Give Up or To Let Go'; Or Both

who is the person entity within who answers our questions, thoughts, or gives us prompts and direction? this morning before waking, often my most active sleeping mind, i considered, "interesting the life coaching conversations within our heart mind", and then easy and immediate a black graphic with simple white words appeared. It read: "Surrender, I?" or something like that. And I am not clear. Not clear it really had a question mark, not sure the I was there. But surrender was. And I responded, "No, i will not surrender to anger, pain, despair, i have trouble and hesitancy writing hopelessness, and the lack of love"

If i think long enough, i am not sure what the surrender refers to; i just give up, and put on altar the emotions that are dragging me down and morphing my soul energy.

In an attempt to wrest back control, i thought i needed to stay away from this facebook...in the local loci, fb is nothing but the total cesspit of all that is wrong in trinidad and tobago. who does not get affected by a steady diet of ugliness and negativity? and how to retreat away from it? i suspect, once again, this is the source, aegis and reason for apathy...one shuts off what one cannot control; either that or pelts oneself into grand schemes of action and business toward futility. all vanity. balance is evasive

i wish i never thought so much

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and that is the problem isn't it. surrender. I am still fighting. fighting surrender to be like the tide: deceitful;, dishonest, inauthentic, money driven, materialistic, to be inured, vacuous, asleep unconscious..i have not surrendered; and i have not surrendered to accept what is brought as normal

how do i leave the sheep and goats, and stop fighting...? that is the task before me

"Don't be a puppet (unless you're a Muppet)"
Maven Huggins that is precisely the problem Tracy. we are surrounded by muppets and puppets. the former have not been yet given a hand

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Giving up or Letting Go


David Simmons for me, surrender is about letting go (not giving up). letting go of the negatives within and outside of us. it's about recognizing that we don't always have to be "in control" (which is a tired/tiring trope that gets repeated so much everyone thinks it's commonsensical to be in control) marianne williamson writes a lot about surrender.

Maven Huggins third piece...maybe i misunderstood surrender...some more to ponder--and it could mean this...cause i was thinking of altar and seeking help/release..

David wrote: "like the most important things in life, surrender is a paradox. letting go without necessarily giving up. we surrender to the authorities, to our lovers, etc. in that, there's our own willingness to give ourselves to someone else...and in that giving of ourselves (surrendering), i think, we come to a deeper sense of self, particularly as it's tied to a collective community."