Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Sickness of No Name

what i put my hand to spins gold.
despite my recent slump
music in the bamboo (c) April 21 2013) was proof
small, intimate, but smooth, elegant, lovely, enchanting, and top class for a small budget, my sole bank account on E.
not a guest complained
more than that all proclaimed the grand time had by all.
at $50K invested by me and mine
my idea. my creation, my lead, my brand
everyone knows and testifies

and what thanks did i get?
undermining, mistreatment,
jealousy, envy, and letting enemies come to sow evil seed
with my partner's consent and participation
deceit bleeds your blood
i bailed

the next event/parang
put on by the least and his cohort consort,
cousin absent of hand, competence and loyalty
bombed

i now get a call
"putting a team together and want my presence"
 for bob/music in the bamboo, another of my creation
slated for me and bob's birthday Feb 6, 2014
to be held on Feb 9, 2014

"a team together" ?!?!
the team that was me and you?
that was the success of April 21?
that was dismantled and disrespected by you?
such a team?
by you? and your peeps? who for your whole life never put any thing 
and certainly not dollars on your table?
your best friend tell me none such as me ever crossed your path
and you pig behavior testifies to that fact
not everyone knows what to do with pearls

but me $50K gets kicked in the gut, stabbed in the cheek, knifed in the back
go ahead with your team pardner
let your peeps help you. carry you, support you
the ones who only had things to say and questions to ask about me and my motivation
on the life we were building together
until after your bounty and you want to carry on with your same pathos
historic behavior
maes wasnt trying to chop you for no reason

ingrates i dont contend
not in this stage in my life

i gave you everything and even attempted to corral friends and high neighbors
for your interest

hear him: 'giving me the opportunity to be a part'
is a wonder i dont cuss him
but it is testament to the mad pathology i have learned i am dealing with
like one neither talks nor shouts audibly to the deaf
so one does not reason or counter the sickness of the male sociopsychopath

what can one say to another who destroys the best thing that happened to them . ever
and then returns to try to gain the assets back, after shitting on it.
you see dissonance. you see schizophrenia. you see bipolar. you see sickness that have no name/

and i just watch it all like a movie
like i will return to the land , to meet, build and contribute
where my enemies are free to trod, where their hand has planted seed with your consent. yes. like i look mad

no matter what i look like
i am not

carry on

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