Sunday, August 31, 2014

Independence of Life

i was liming with a speed demon last night...someone in a bangup toyota hatchback wagon, but whose engine was snazzed suped up and the wheels very stable. one of those - look at me and mistake me kind of vehicles. but i write all of that to say, i was so cognizant zooming through the middle of the night highways and streets, from arima to pos that after every lime and stop. i settled in spiritually, speaking to my three guides and my brother ancestor to secure, hold and stabilize me that should an impact happen, i be saved miraculously as I always have been. it just occurred to me to be thankful that i made it to Sunday morning, safe and not in a news report. it is disconcerting...i realized, learning what i did of this individual that sometimes people may have a death wish and not even know it...this person's friend said they were emotionally unstable as his wife had left him for another man, pregnant she is for the other man, who his friend it was regaling me the facts, introduce her to. He speaking to me about how all of us have emotional traumas that we would never know of, and how life happens to us, and what we have been through and sometimes take to the grave, no one else ever knowing, we not betraying. the walking damaged. i matched that with the driving and realize, how easy it is for people to get caught up in other people's destinies. i remember that ceo associate...who died in a car crash with a girlfriend..i wondering who took who in that situation cause both of them were in delicante . i have no idea why my brain is so imaginative and why i end up in such bizarre life dynamics...speaking of which last night i had three odd spiritual intercourses with strangers - that the driver himself observed as they were with his friends---leading him to ask "why was i there"

one of which accidentally spraying another spanish man -- the friend who introduced the wife to the male homewrecker -- one with a head full of thick curly wavy hair that would make a dog want to touch - dogs not into hair...with my mouth full of a brandy sip -- straight onto his head, side face and shoulders as if I was a babalawao performing a ceremony. everyone present was stunned and perplexed...we ended up meeting up again hours after in chaguaramas where we talked about it and ended up dancing the parkway. my driver friend unspoken-felt it was retribution for his deed done of demise in his life.

another man in arima i made get up from the table in a coughing spell

and a third moved away from my hand to his forehead in a bendward back matrix kung fu stance

"why am i here"

know what i mean too about finding myself in odd circumstances? Liming with deportees. one who murdered a man. i did not even bother to hear the story. a young dude, twenty three years old, who i stood up for as he sat in council of his older mentors? guides...me not knowing at that time the story...but i was like. (throws hands up shakes head: How and Why me so )

#maravalarimaspanishpeople

and then Ladean posts an oracle for me of being a spiritual teacher.
the magic required/ the mystery of all things/ the perplexity of purpose/ and the complexity of all beings

oh! and liming with people who tricked out their interiors so there is no back seat, use of the boot..in $20, $30 and $40K worth of speaker box, audio, energy generators, amps and the like is ...well lets say stunningly stunning. i just wondered what all else could have been done with that money.. this whole clip is about that. all mostly married men: two spanish, two indian and an african--

i even told one, the african, if he knew what i could have done with that money and that right now i have an annex to refurbish. laugh eh. for me to talk about other people's money

well this post cant done cause i think of all that i observed. people really do live in bizarre ways...the level of cleanliness of homes, organization, finishings, or various states of unfinish...but i was in a millionaire's house on Thursday and even his, as fly and lifestyle of the rich and famous it was, the bathroom i visited was seriously wanting...i tell my mother all the time..the way we live i have almost no where here to fore never seen in Trinidad. and we have fallen off cause our current housekeeper is no where near the professional skilled person we had formerly. and the millionaire's housekeeper was there. serving me full bodied wine in a brandy snifter.

#yesmegracioussnob

it is bizarre for me to see rich people who are not generous though, and in fact, very stingy. anybody for that matter. for we can be generous with nothing

very very interesting last few days

#drivemoses

lead the way

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