i have no idea what is going on, but let me document this
last weekend, friday, december 6th, I had such pulls, light cramps, distended feeling in my abdomen, in my belly. i had such a heavy feeling. from the night before, all into the day.
it carried on into saturday, where i shared it with margaret. we talked about the signs of pregnancy because the friday before as I went to my journal to document what i was feeling as i am wont to do this late in my years, over fifty, still with my cycle that is so methodical. mathematical. moon based and timely, and seemingly happening on ever growing shorter time spans, I realize it was the time for ovulation. but the feelings were not normal ovulations, not the normal experiences i have had in recent years or ever before when younger. these things shift and change given the time and age i believe
so margaret tells me all of that are signs. of pregnancy
that was at seven weeks.
why seven weeks?
it was seven weeks prior, also on a friday, Nove 18, that i had sex with Narine Boodoo
in the week since, my abdomen has given me an ease, but i noticed in the last day or so, my areolas are rough. as if they have a rash or exczema. the interesting thing Is i have not rushed to put ointment or any treatment on them. but today, i googled and researched and sure enough, what comes up? signs of pregnancy, and early stage pregnancy.
what is fascinating and what i suspect is that too, the signs and experiences of pregnancy changes per your life stage, age, and with each one.
the other thing that made me start writing? i noticed yesterday my skin on the thigh is dry. i looked that up. and yup. that too is an incidental of pregnancy. then what else? I have been constipated for the last two days. and i was thinking because it is I am not smoking, not eating well, enough fiber.. but i did not even bother to look that up. who dont know that can be a part of the package. so me eh know...what is in store, but i decided to write down every single particular of what may turn out to be journey
during this week too, I had a day of foul vaginal smell. not discharge, it would seem. just one day. and gone.
the other science with the whole thing too.. is how it coincided with me stopping liming and drinking and smoking every day by the bar, since christmas eve. and i stopped smoking at the new year when i ran out of money. and roderick bought me a pack of cigarettes that was the wrong kind and he insisted on giving it to his yardman when i was going to trade it for the right kind. and that was that. I have not smoked since. except a pull and a two at a party last saturday night. so is like the universe is assisting me, even in my ignorance
it just occurred to me to write this stuff all down. in case, a baby is on the way. a boy i hope. and it was high and intense the expectation last week. i decided Krisson will be the Godfather one. Uchenna Hackett, Godfather two and my Godsister, Carlene Rostant Freeman, the GodMother, if they agree.
If I count the weeks I am writing at exactly two months and one day pregnant/
And thirtysix weeks from the day of sex would be July 28, 2017
I dont plan on taking a pregnancy test but to just watch my body, life and belly.
Then too, just today my girlfriend from since college writes and tells me she is coming to Trinidad in March. and we should hook up. I shall make her too a GodMother. and I think i want to change that designation. LifeParent? GiftMother, GiftFather. i dont know
last weekend, friday, december 6th, I had such pulls, light cramps, distended feeling in my abdomen, in my belly. i had such a heavy feeling. from the night before, all into the day.
it carried on into saturday, where i shared it with margaret. we talked about the signs of pregnancy because the friday before as I went to my journal to document what i was feeling as i am wont to do this late in my years, over fifty, still with my cycle that is so methodical. mathematical. moon based and timely, and seemingly happening on ever growing shorter time spans, I realize it was the time for ovulation. but the feelings were not normal ovulations, not the normal experiences i have had in recent years or ever before when younger. these things shift and change given the time and age i believe
so margaret tells me all of that are signs. of pregnancy
that was at seven weeks.
why seven weeks?
it was seven weeks prior, also on a friday, Nove 18, that i had sex with Narine Boodoo
in the week since, my abdomen has given me an ease, but i noticed in the last day or so, my areolas are rough. as if they have a rash or exczema. the interesting thing Is i have not rushed to put ointment or any treatment on them. but today, i googled and researched and sure enough, what comes up? signs of pregnancy, and early stage pregnancy.
what is fascinating and what i suspect is that too, the signs and experiences of pregnancy changes per your life stage, age, and with each one.
the other thing that made me start writing? i noticed yesterday my skin on the thigh is dry. i looked that up. and yup. that too is an incidental of pregnancy. then what else? I have been constipated for the last two days. and i was thinking because it is I am not smoking, not eating well, enough fiber.. but i did not even bother to look that up. who dont know that can be a part of the package. so me eh know...what is in store, but i decided to write down every single particular of what may turn out to be journey
during this week too, I had a day of foul vaginal smell. not discharge, it would seem. just one day. and gone.
the other science with the whole thing too.. is how it coincided with me stopping liming and drinking and smoking every day by the bar, since christmas eve. and i stopped smoking at the new year when i ran out of money. and roderick bought me a pack of cigarettes that was the wrong kind and he insisted on giving it to his yardman when i was going to trade it for the right kind. and that was that. I have not smoked since. except a pull and a two at a party last saturday night. so is like the universe is assisting me, even in my ignorance
it just occurred to me to write this stuff all down. in case, a baby is on the way. a boy i hope. and it was high and intense the expectation last week. i decided Krisson will be the Godfather one. Uchenna Hackett, Godfather two and my Godsister, Carlene Rostant Freeman, the GodMother, if they agree.
If I count the weeks I am writing at exactly two months and one day pregnant/
And thirtysix weeks from the day of sex would be July 28, 2017
I dont plan on taking a pregnancy test but to just watch my body, life and belly.
Then too, just today my girlfriend from since college writes and tells me she is coming to Trinidad in March. and we should hook up. I shall make her too a GodMother. and I think i want to change that designation. LifeParent? GiftMother, GiftFather. i dont know
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