"I have had a couple of weeks of immersing my Self in the Collective Consciousness swamp of "death by cancer" and would like to share some insights with you all that I hope may help in some way.
I just found out I have skin cancer, which although is not particularly Life threatening to me at this stage, it does however thrust me into the whole cancer paradigm of unknowns, fear and suffering of regrets and sadness. My Kahuna once said that the sickness of cancer is deep seated unresolved sadness, and having experienced the past 2 weeks, I have felt the experience of that.
Through my "Experiencing" work and because of my now intimate experience of cancer, I have spent the past weeks allowing myself to unearth those areas of my Life that are still retaining any residual energy of sadness, attachment and resistance etc and particularly abandonment. A fascinating exploration, for although I have done many many explorations of ownership in these areas, it was interesting now to just "allow" the residual energy still anchored to surface for completion. Scarey and liberating at the same time. Many insights revealed their self and countless surprises of how much energy was actually still trapped within me from these incomplete resisted experiences.
One of the greatest revelations has been of how cancer of ALL types, is the extreme expression of sadness and its inherent attachments to the perception of abandonment's in all forms. It is not just about where others had abandoned me, but particularly where I had abandoned my Self. The sadness I was suppressing within me from way way back previous events and also current human events, was the very same sadness I was feeling about having these cancers right now. The experience was the same, but the consequence of death here now was the extreme version of that sadness experience.
I could experientially see now what my beloved Kahuna was sharing with me. It is the stored remnants that eventually and inevitably, manifested the NOW experience of sadness that I couldn't avoid any longer.
After 2 weeks of this final allowing, I woke on Thursday morning and was painfully looking at the large open lesion on my leg and of course, allowing my Self to feel VERY sorry for my self. All of a sudden I had a rush of insightful Chi. In a flash I "KNEW" and even stated to my Self, that I wasn't going to die from this as long as I keep "experiencing" the massive Life change this event of cancer was bringing to me. As I stayed "in-feel" with my Awareness, within a half hour I was getting insight after insight of the connection between our body and Planet wellness and the power of the system of experiencing we have to work with to neutralize these build ups of resisted enegries.
I was laughing at my self because of the simplicity of this Divine system that brings our deepest resisted experience and there inherent energy blocks to the surface to be cleared. I could see that this is a Divine Orchestration so we may remain the most optimal Human, Spiritually possible. I saw how from my experience of the cancers coming out on me when I would expose my body to the sun, the sun actually draws them to the surface, to the light, to be seen so I can connect with them and make things right within my Self. Nature was reflecting to me an answer to the treatment of this sickness. By using my Awareness to "feel", this allowed me also to bring to the surface those associated resisted experiences. By allowing them to reveal to me in the light of my Awareness, the very experiential energy that is contributing to my physical dis-harmonies and dis-eases, blocks were being removed and I could feel my vitality increasing.
I was going to do some landscaping for my therapist friend that day but with all of this happening, I decided to not work and try to write about this. The morning laughter at self was also associated with the fact that the last 3 chapters of the book were also revealing them selves to me in profoundly graphic clarity. Their subject matter was exactly what all of these insights were related to. One of those chapters is called "Ho'oponopono for the World" and is related to the power of our ability of Experiencing to heal and how it opens up the flow of Divine Chi through us all.
When I called my friend to tell him I wasn't coming, his first question to me was, what have I done about the leg cancer? Before I could answer, he immediately started asking his other practitioners at his practice if they knew anything about how to treat it. Just as he was asking this, another practitioner who works there part time was walking past and said "Ohh yeah, I've been treating them for 18 yrs now very simply with an ancient American Indian herbal treatment with enormous success". He put her on the phone ... we talked ... I made an appointment that afternoon ... we began the first session. One application that afternoon of the worst and most obvious ones and by the morning they were dead. At this rate ALL skin cancers right now will be dead within 2 weeks without any dramatic rehabilitation's.
The physical clearing had begun I believe, because the space had been opened up as the healing of my Being was being completed. The ongoing prevention will come not in the form of resisting the sun, for it was resistance that created these events in the first place. It would come in the form of embracing a Life change of increased wellness on ALL levels of my Being through nutritional, emotional, physical and Spiritual practices that optimize the amount of Chi flow through me to the very heart of our Life support system we call Mother Earth.
I couldn't help but appreciate the Divine sequencing once more that brought ALL of this TO ME, that had this angel walk past just at the right time to hear the word cancer, without drama, suffering and grief. My willingness to experience anything completely and continually neutralized any escalation of drama and resistance my mind would love to bring up. I know this escalation would have surely prolonged and maybe intensified this whole journey for me.
You know, if I put my Awareness on a person or event that has lied to me or abandoned me etc., or any area of retained sadness and I still feel a charge of any kind, then I haven't completed the process of forgiveness or Love. Both of those neutralize all residual charge between my Self and the other and leaves a space of quiet calm that has no need for talk about it any longer.
Ho'oponopono is to say "I'm Sorry - Please forgive me - Thank you - I Love you."
The catch is that I am saying it to my Divine Higher Self, not to the other and when I say each I am allowing my self to "feel" the charge and connection to the present. The REAL power of Ho'oponopono is in our ability to TRULY and Self-HONESTLY "experience" each phrase as we speak it.
I'M SORRY, is to "feel" truly sorry for the event and anything "I" have done (without thinking about what that is, but allow what is to reveal its self to me). This is the area where the sadness becomes suppressed and has been buried deeper and deeper.
PLEASE FORGIVE ME is "Humbly" truly asking for forgiveness of the Divine Source for what has happened ... without ANY blame of other OR Self. This is the humility step .. to "feel" humbled by the experience and the place I play in this bigger picture.
THANK YOU is to "feel" TRULY thankful for the experience and grateful for the opportunity to learn and apply something new. Thankful for the experience and for the other person or event showing up to play the hard role of Liar or abandon-er so I can have this opportunity.
I LOVE YOU, simply becomes a natural "Response" after having "experienced" the above steps and is the one that dissolves the residual charge.
The first steps clear the space within me, which "makes things right with Self."
The last dissolves the barriers and disconnections between me and ALL others, not just the one that has lied or abandoned me etc. That person was merely the catalyst to give me the opportunity for me to clear my space of anchored negatively charged Chi within me that I have been storing from other events as well. If I need that person to forgive me ... then I am still incomplete with my own Ho'oponopono.
So please allow your self to just simply "feel with your Awareness" and experience your sadness completely in any and all areas of your Life ... especially in the present moment when it is happening. Especially notice and experience any forms of resistance to feeling sad also in EVERY present moment. With Courage and Awareness, you will notice that even the viewpoint of not having any sadness, is a self-deception form of resistance to just simply allowing your self to experience being sad. Sadness is an intrinsic aspect of the "Human being" and can't be denied, for it shows up our deeper and hidden attachments and expectations.
Here's an ironic paradox of the Divine system of experiencing, "If I experience my sadness fully and completely in every moment that it reveals its self, then I will no longer need to "live" there."
A visit to sadness is healthy ... to live there is a death sentence.
By not experiencing it, by resisting anything ... I become trapped in it ... suppressing its energy deep within me where it covertly influences and sabotages the full and open expression of the "Being of Love" I TRULY am."
thanking him deeply for his sharing the path to wholeness and healing for us all. I had to share it and share it agan.
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