who would believe...

 

Sagittarius Energy Full Moon Lunar Eclipse

someone who blanked me
over a year ago
promised to help me take my business, ArtPost Trinidad to a regional level
we had meetings. we planned a strategy. then he disappeared
saying he was busy
I wondered why
i wondered if i overwhelmed him
asked for too much
you know how we conscious and female creatures do: look for self blame and indictment.

now today,
he writes
 boldly
with no apology
i keep telling you all
these males in this place* are peculiar
twisted, un-non-integrated, fragmented and broken

this man employed
on tv
with his own business
family and children
yet, he reaches out to me....


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•  12:43

  Hayden Blades
  

  
  

  Is there someway that we can find the time to brainstorm. I need to recharge my passion and I may need your help. It does not matter where we meet, I am tired of waiting for the world to enable my path. Let me know how you feel.
• 

  12:53

  Maven Huggins
  

  
  

  i always have time
  you ask me to help you while i have not been able to help myself
  and the world has not enabled my path but crosses if not ignores it at every possible opportunity
• 13:00

  Hayden Blades
  

  
  

  Your presence will be enough for me. You are the sunlight that disinfects the mind. I need a bit of your presence if you don't mind.
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  13:00

  Maven Huggins
  

  
  

  no problem
  
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  Maven Huggins:
  
   sometimes the universe gives me too much
  sometimes the universe thinks too highly of me
  sometimes there is no place to scream
  cause the madness is at the very outlet: here: fb
  
  someone who blanked me in a big way over a year ago is knocking
  asking me to revitalize them
  when they were supposed to be helping me take my business to the next level
  
  i just stare at the mail
  astonished
  and reflecting on how and to what extent clearly the universe, guides, gods and ancestors think i am valid worthy and big enough to not go off
  i just thought of grace and wondered if i am capable
  
  so instead i come here to write
  who am i that i cant save and provide for myself?
  suffer endless persecution and lack of love
  but yet still, sought by others
  ?
  
  smh
  makes no sense
  but Gita just told me...my path is not to make sense. not for me anyway
  and the tears flow
  
  i have much money, gold, holy water, prayers, offerings and praise
  my tears
  
  and no matter what they say of me, my energy is pure/ remains so
  they may  lie and say otherwise
  But...the nature lifts me up and proves different
  my true character
  
  light
  not the misunderstanding folk buy, announce, trade and barter