Joginder Aulakh:
" rather no woman , ever played victim -- it is the man's littleness -- that always spoke a lie ."
Staceyann Chin, "What happened to me was NOT MY FAULT".
-------quotes on a meme regarding women, victimhood, and "playing victim"
and i am wondering, when is what you experience and happened to you,
"your fault"? then i wonder if a lot of my experiences these past
thirteen years were "victim blaming"? i
never considered or framed myself as a victim but i wonder if i have
been a victim of this world capitalist domination system? or is it that i
pulled the wrong tools off the shelf? or that I never knew how to play
the games for the arenas i entered? what and where is the role of
'blame' and 'responsibility' and i quote Joginder because of his, "it is
the man's littleness" screams out at me. ... when we choose the wrong
things, the wrong places, the wrong people, the wrong choices, the wrong
behavior, the wrong responses, the reactions? i feel lost and confused
as ever and wonder what are the symptoms of being in connection and
interface with demented sociopsychopaths. i certainly believe being lost
and confused is the direct result of such. and i remember another meme
that says when confused turn the picture another way, upside down, look
from another angle. which is itself scary, cause in a two part deal,
supposedly, the opposite direction is from the counterpart and their
comments and behavior will surely leave you to think, there was a
scheme, a strategy, a play, a confidence game, to get and benefit at any
expense or cost; least of all any consideration to you, and you had no
idea. believing someone good when they are only a smartman. this leads
me to reflect on a talk i had yesterday that seemed to me a bit surreal,
as if i was a tv, radio or journalist host, or writer taking notes,
documenting an experience...i feel this is a good place to tag that
write up and leave it in its broken, unclean, unedited raw copy. but it
can be controversial. and there are ideas in there that should be
copyrighted, but overall, i felt it was an unexpected boon : someone
showing their brilliance that i never thought or knew, a sharp insight
that seemed different from the crowd and landscape.
if nothing
else, this post is taken the indirect and impersonal, applying it to the
personal and then it is an external personal human
interaction/interactive dynamic extrapolating it to a nationhood
and see, as i read the piece over pondering whether to make it public,
the word jumps out at me. TRUST. all the pieces I am seeking weaving to
integrate are about TRUST> trust on the personal internal level,
trust on the interactive level with others, intimate and public, and
public trust of institutions, politicians, processes and systems;;
outcomes and services. and trust of individuals in all these dynamics to
make the right call, see accurately, associate correctly, be honest--
and where is the blame, or responsibility> do we take responsibility
for encountering and engaging snakes? or are those the 'littleness of
men"?
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Machinations of Political Imaginations
13 August 2013 at 12:51
it is a very rough time right now and taking a lot of imagination to survive politically
it is like the lord of the rings. there is a lot of undercurrent and
machinations going on so it requires a lot of political imagination.
a neanderthal' a cromagnon reimagined
his political presence is a backward step into tribalism and 'bigmanism'
in the malaysian culture they have a big man culture...(the jefe, don,
chief of africa, latin america) in malaysia, big man, baddestman, coming
out of a tribal fighting culture... in his case his use of money and
brer nancy - the spider in the Aesop's fable--the smart man, conniving,
bob and weave, move around and get out of situation...our politics in
trinidad is brer nancy ...and it is a tabanca a fallout and sooner or
later him and kamla will get back together..
you know the kind
of things they said about kamla when they were opposing her: moonilal,
bharath, but that is there...once they can control they can get back
together...so there is this dance of conflict and this is their means of
negotiation to resolve and come back again? ...all part of their hindu
theory mixed with chieftain politics....the models are there you
know..they just keep reinterpreting it all the time...read
Ramayana...the story of Hanuman ==the one who theif the wife of
shiva...and Shiva's Tabanca.. same stories they are reinacting...all
about power, success and money..
so it takes a lot of poltiical
imagination. you cant relate to anyone on straight trust
relationships...this is why the society cant advance because you cant
use trust as a normal currency...trust is the currency of business --
(human relations, dealings and social capital), you have to use scheming
and brer nancy politics. so a lot of the nations' resources are
absorbed into trickery, corruption, rival, conmen and conwomen
...that billion dollar road is the most expensive road in the
world...where is that money going...so the minute the road going to
build..you and your friends go and buy up all the land..you go and buy a
mountain...and that is the opposition...people, the public, know they
are being conned but they cant figure it out and put their finger on
it...
so for parties like us, a partner describe it as a virgin in a whore house...and one pure, it is lost..
...on the port, to get a barrel, one has about twelve stops to
make...all of that is to decrease the corruption...but all it does is
increase the corruption because there is a greater number of
opportunity...same thing with licensing office
so jw is on his
rampage and he has a lot of money to expand himself..he has stolen the
golden goose---the gg is the political will of the people
what is
laying the egg. giving political power...so he has snatched that and is
running with it and the giant, the unc, is running after him
surprising that jack is the name in that story...Jack and the
Beanstalk...climbed up and stole something from the giant...Jack the
Giant Slayer>>>
...thinking
of bringing out a band next year...Jacks. Jack you Up, Jack up Your
Car, JackAss, Jack and the Beanstalk, Jumping Jack, Jack Hammer,
JackIron Rum (Grenada) - highest alcohol content -90% in the
world...Jack be Nimble...Austin "Jack" Warner...he got jack because the
teacher in school called him a jackass>" ole mas every piece will
tell a story..
thought about writing a book: i transported to this country and when i
land there is a fight between tribal factions...and i am told of how
this country came to be there, the people and its conditions and how the
war started...talking of the political philosophy of what it means to
be in this place
because the person who emerges as the leader
of the country, as a strongman, but he will not be the solution to or
for the country."
"death threats and extortion...so he can manage them by giving them some things...shady characters
so how does this work: threat pulls you down, hurts you, keeps you
quiet, extortion itself makes you aparty to their criminal ring..
remember jack was minister of national security so people have their people
it is not the first threat i have gotten there are others who have
their strongmen, and they assign themselves to you. 'saif'...and when
you refuse them they get aggressive
these people subscribe to
power as if it is a god...you know they are not really smart you know;
they have not much alternative or choice in their life (and this part
reminds me of a conversation i had with hayden blades saying that the
population of this country are all chasing a few opportunities, all of
them knowing that one thing: that time, resource and opportunity shall
soon run out, so there is a mad grab to get it all at once, and two,
they all fear that the other will get it and they will get none. and in
that regard, imagine the negativity transplants, and different thinkers
will be subjected to, the gate keeping, shutting down, exclusion and
maligning that may occur--that is the victimhood this country is
predicated on--and if you speak it, you are not taking responsibility? i
met someone last week and in a conversation about employment and why
one such like me with so many skills and ideas and they asked me my
background and when i mentioned the phd was told that once people see
that they will run scared. this country..ah, another word. Fear and
Scared, Coward and Curs/ Four for one. Then the lack of Trust, the
absence of Honesty, and the Subterfuge, Subterfusion, Mamaguy and Double
Dealing,. there is an overwhelming avalanche of stuff, paralyzing to
recount)
"....like the people who are part of these ethnic
groups" --- at this point the exchange trailed off, the focus flipped,
but if it were possible to continue, that endline would be a perfect
pick up point to learn and hear more.
-------end transcript such as it were/there
are typos i can no longer see, but this person;s use of lens and
frameworks, literature and character were fascinating to foreign
me----------------------------------
it
is a hell of a thing to talk to someone, know they are lying , but they
have no idea that you know things, have seen things, have read things
to know that they are lying, and then watch them do the subterfuge, the
obfuscation, the discussion
on proof, or giving false interpretations.. all to undermine your
assessment that you couch as questions or propositions...
it is destabilizing really.
does
that qualify for sociopsychopathic behavior? and what is that you may
ask? dissonance, hypocrisy, lies, damn lies, obfuscation, projection,
alterations, constructing alternate realities, reimagining history and
events, challenging your charger's truth, memory, or just coming up with
new shit that blows the other's mind. in short to obliterate the ground
you both are standing on.
i wrote yesterday to leave the dumb shit alone ehnt?
if
one is not careful, they will destroy and obliterate you, all the while
speaking of 'genuinely liking you" lordamercy, calling all guides and
ancestors to save, aid and deliver
makes me think of that sister they sent to st. ann's,, or the movie, liar liar,
and
then it occurred to me this is the behavior of little people, they
conjure up and cover up to compensate for their personal failures, all
the while they assign that to you. what is the dsmv? dmsv? category for
this behavior?
see that photo is in three parts. the land. a wombmyn and a male/ peculiar isnt it
