Battling Against Psychological Warfare/ Life of A Melanated Female

Richard Anthony Luke:

"There are some books so hard to find and when found they have been deleted from the net. Here is a great one, but it is set up to prevent the link from being posted so you will have to search it out yourself. Secret.Societies.And Psychological.Warfare by Michael Hoffman. Yup. It's about that psychological war I keep telling you about. The one you don't think that you are engaged in, for you are at peace. Yeah right."

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yo. i think. am almost sure. that is what and why and how my life is in the turbulence it is in all corners. i have awakened to the psychological warfare against my existence, my soul, my embodiment of self from long time, if not from a child. No If. From a child, starting with the first opponent who took me on: my father...and I  learned then...it was not safe. I was in a war. so i had to become a warrior. I am  now deconstructing and weaving the pieces into a new more enlightened understanding and this post helps...so up to today, last night, when friends who are all men, older, trying to tell me what to do, how to be, praising and beholding me only because of my attributes of their preference, that is just pure attempts to cannibalize, consume, control, own...i understand where my 'disobedience' comes from. one who is sane will never obey someone trying to kill suppress or change them = and change for their purposes and use eh

and one certainly learns there are common forms not to be trusted...so when someone tells me i have trust issues, i find it funny, only the untrustworthy, scoundrels are ever the ones to mouth those words. i find it funny that they never take it as a challenge to prove and show themselves worthy, but to continue doing all the things, blindly and intentionally, that scream to me the extent to their deceit and lying. It is kind of deep

real deep/ cause i am now at the juncture that my warriorhood must take on another form. it allowed me to survive but not thrive, and it is blocking me now and for a long time, i imagine. but the war has not ended so it surely provides for a dilemma.

and you can never speak or tell these people of such ideas or realities/ they were telling me to calm down for my passion in farming and railing against a slave culture that keeps cogs from ever awakening, far less for if i was to speak this.

wow.
the camel and that eye of a needle