Everything on its Head

 
it is a new year. or so they tell us
essentially existentially there is only one new year for us individually and that is our birthday
so my new year comes up on February 6
but until then...lets construct as we are instructed, which gets me to one of my requirements maybe
1. to follow instructions

but it is a new year and i aim to reconstruct my narrative. revision it as it were. rewrite the myth and story. and where did this come from, just a glib comment from a fb friend i was liming with these past two days and he said as he listened to me and the psychoanalysis he comes up with is that of a victim and all that has been done to me. i admitted a lot has happened to me in my life. really. but i also took pause.and wondered why and how i do not expatiate on my accomplishments and successes...and i know why. i have a belief that old accomplishments are not to be laurels to rest and you are as good only to the next level not the past; plus it gets old talking about the old and the past. so why not let it be old to talk of the past bad or bad past?

nevertheless and no matter what or how i put it, i dont want to be a victim. and everything i have planned for myself in 2014 relates to being victorious

i want to reclaim the land left owner-and interet-less that i brought out from abandonment
i want to have my own home - i really thought and was dreaming that i could pull that off for this january 1. but maybe for february. who knows

everything i dont do now i want to do and everything i do now i want to stop doing
i need to pray everyday. i need to pray for victory and i need to pray to vanquish my enemies. i need to pray for protection and passage. i need to pray for my right army. i need to pray for guidance because i only seem to fall into the hands of the wicked and the beguiling. i need to pray and work toward the completion and conversion of 2013. it was prequel and setting the stage for the overtake and conquering for this year. . ranselan

i need to pray for support and mentorship and the guide to lead the way to success resounding. i envision that by mid-year

i have to accomplish ranselan
i have to accomplish getting my right and rightful amount gratuity
i have to accomplish a house

by August 2014
and then it will be too late. i want a house by now

it is the year of the horse - time to gallop and everything flipped on its head, everything new and different

there are people i want to forget: mona/turu/case
situations i want to rectify: case
deeds i want to accomplish; ownership/home/gratuity/land
behaviors i want to stop or alter: smoking/drinking/eating non raw and vegan
behaviors and character traits i want to develop: kindness/compassion/athleticism
just think of the now new and future. nothing in the past


no woundedness