Excuse Me, The Egg

cedric. i am not gonna do this. i am not gonna keep repeating myself. I am not gonna keep clarifying myself. I am not gonna keep explaining myself. what i will do is just say, ok.

especially since you are not asking me questions but telling me what you find. so fine. that works.

I am not coming in conflict. well i wasnt. but when people push back and talk their peace especially being a woman it is problematic.

i did not ask you to walk away from the academy.

and what i did say was let me stay in my lane.

Amnd for you to mention pushing back my travel after all of this is real real real deep/ it is not pure. It is not of good character.

I have no conflict with you cause I have nothing with you. the only conflict might be all the promises made were not real and not available.

But for you to even remove from me the opportunity to just travel, cross sea, come over there and just air out, is kind of ugly.

because as you stated, I not coming there to do nothing, not cook for you or your boys, not take care of them. I was just coming to read books, vegetate and see what I might do.

today hearing that you want to take debt indicated to me, that your talk of all these months are neither practical or happening any time soon, and I as good with that. I was and been put on a different wavelength when you sent me that memo of all what I need not do.

now let me tell you this. what information you found to day is the income for local trinidadians. NOT THE INCOME THEY PAY FOREIGNERS. get it now.

i gt sick of being doubted, checked on by people who dont know half of what I do

I dont nor expected you to be babysitting me at any time in this process.

I expected as you mentioned, to be in a house by myself for two months as you offered to provide for food, and housing.

Why do you think I wrote to get a suitcase of clothes there? So i would not have to expect or rely on y ou to buy me things as promised.

Your response is incredibly selfish/

self centered of no concern or mind to any side except yours but it was your offer to extend , pretned or rescind/

And you are not even discussing this but instructing. so my dear, it is better always for one to have their own.

Thanks for the egg on my face. It will be interesting tomorrow at my farewell party

bows.

I should laugh. welcome to my life i should tell myself. the endless troll of people who show up offering the world only for it to be a 'psyche'/./ and then you want to write me about TRUST> are you for real. ahahahaaa.. love it. this is better than satire and Irony

yes. i am told I am a mirror. and your life is a shamble/ just like mine. and you were and are in no position to do half the things you presented. and i see it over and over and over again.

And those times were the BAM>

down to you not knowing when your lease was up/

i am being tested though. I used to say i am not easily shamed or embarrassed. I see now your callousness is boundless. and i shall have to find a way to continue on after calling people. saying goodbye, Emptying the last of my money in my accounts, spending it freely these days..

But , so it is/

what is it you said about chips on shoulder? thanks for adding a few more inches and pounds. dealing with...oh what was it you wrote me once, "i am not like the trini men and people as you have encountered"

well you couldnt be more trini if you had a trini passport.

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what was it that my friends knew that i did not?
they kept on saying, "i waiting to see if she will leave"
they seemed to have known i was not going anywhere
and kept on saying it.

two days before