Meet the Ancestors

hm.

"can i meet my ancestors without shame"?

this strikes me as so significant. strikes me as such a lofty goal, when truth is, despite acknowledging my ancestors, i see their actions in the land of the living, I see the things they did, the sabotage, what they failed to do. the treachery in some cases, like my brother who told my mother that my college boyfriend was living with us but he wasnt, it was summer, and we would spend a few days or so. guest. i thought i was free to live this life as best as I could see fit or onto my choices, but now...can i face them without shame. so far yes. and much honor for what i have both , accomplished and tried

and such a perplexing presentation/ i met alice once. in atlanta , at some function, i was still in my twenties. telling her of my writing, and something proceeded out of my mouth, or spirit, or from behind me and she literally just walked away. i never knew why, but it is the reason I think i am spirit possessed by my brother. from the time of his death, the same year, mere months later, where i denied him return and was told decades after that he was trying to come back to life and the pod of us. he did not know what it was to be dead.

i also clue into something chase told me in 2013, that i am living and walking with every single ancestor and past life I have ever lived in the cosmos. and those with sense, eyes and powers, can see and feel it, it is why i scare so many so easily. and is one story so far and different from the other. the only proof i have is my art. i realize in the other day that i am a channeling artist. i sit down to do art, and various things come out. but when i am doing freeform and abstract. after the piece is done, endless faces, spirits, beings and entities are shown, from fetuses to animals, to endless human faces, of varying ethnographies and descriptions. there are men with huge beards.

do you even meet your ancestors when they are all walking around with you daily, eclipsing you in life, sometimes? taking over your being and existence? making decisions, taking actions and leaving you to wonder, did i really just say and do that. how?!

 

 

 

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