Friday, July 6, 2012

Shower Revelations

Shower Revelations

people are so badly and repeatedly emotionally battered, abused and disappointed they become irreparably damaged, especially if they never move out of their recoil and resentful resistance. those are padlocks that restrict change, block light, and blind view further

it made me realize the reason for compassion, cause it is not them. it is the experience. their behavior no matter how ugly is not who they came to be, but the altering, the poisoning. so what fool are you to react, battle and engage that? (darkness)?
it is nothing short of fighting phantoms cause that too, the experience, the reaction, the negativity, the learned behaviors are not real. but we absorb stuff. without the right consciousness we think our bad experiences by the hands and minds of others are about us. but they are not. it is about them

then we get infected as if a virus., and we repeat and project, making the illusion a second time/ still out of consciousness

you just have to walk away. in silence

it made me wonder > does black rage engender mental illness. and I know it does. I know i am asking a rhetorical question. i read a book in 1991 called Black Rage by psychologist team and couple, the Wares. beautiful book.

But somehow, i think the phenomena is overlooked, uninvestigated and especially when it comes to the black males. the ones not in jail. the ones looking sane and appearing like catches. some of them, i think a lot of them are sociopsychopaths waiting to reveal . i pick up from yesterday...as clarity comes to me. as answers reveal themselves

the case i saw was depressed bipolar mental illness schizophrenia of internal demons one fashions or imagines in events. and then the blowout. that makes no sense. leaving all who are observing, receiving, wondering. "what happened"

i am thinking > every time that happens, know for sure that is a sign of much of what i speak of here/..

then i wonder is it only black men? but i have less exposure and no experience of non-black men so i dont know cant answer. the non-black sisters will have to answer>>.and as i said yesterday, in the places i live: here in this caribbean, it is the morgue, the bodies and the maiming of women and children, all black and brown, that tells me there is a snake of a problem to deconstruct...and it always goes back to the men. and the women who were unable to see, discern, get out, and protect themselves and their children. So i am just looking at evidence and asking myself; what of?

i realize too...and have to say...this is not male or black male bashing. i have been protected, kept away and apart so i have been saved from the illness, the pathologies, the burning and the bitterness. i am an equal opportunity truth teller of the women and the men, without having been proven by fire, that fire. the male female poison of non-relating only battling.

tell you something else. i recently came into this revelation...whatever you hear a person regaling or telling of their male female experiences...you know how they rail; the black men talk about hating black women, how they are lost, worth nothing, doing nutten...and the black women who talk of men as aint shit, about shit. ...ha~ Ah. ...i beg to believe it is all projection of self. we are these things so we look for others to be different but we cant be, see or gather difference cause that is who you are. and even if you slip and fall and encounter someone of a higher vibration and purer frequency, bet your dollar that poisonous toxic person will perceive and convert every good thing that person shows or exhibits as not, lacking, obverse.

Life is Wild/
To try and build in connection with another has practically reached the point of total futility. I am just telling
you


stop saying "the good ones are married" cause the married ones are the maleable sicknesses that some woman decided she was going to door mat compromise swallow for. no hate. just harsh truths talking.

the few who are really good are too few to number
we cant talk of madness and sick societies and not admit the population IS.. married or single... how many do you really think escaped?

challenge you on that mathematics.
the alchemy for that aint make yet/
the viruses and pathogens roam free

i am just now watching it replicate in population
no lab
Life and Living/

    • Maven Huggins •Men will always be mad, and those who think they can cure them are the maddest of all.

      -Voltaire pseudonym of Fran c° ois Marie Arouet



    • Siris King/
      "Neptune the hidden planet of love: In alchemical astrology neptune is a higher octave of venus. Neptune is totally unconditional love. Yet we need the experience of venus(bad relationships or materialstic relationships) to help our consciousness connect with the energy of neptune and experience higher vibrational love"



      Mg Hardie/  ‎"If you chase garbage long enough you'll convince yourself that it's gold."

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