Ten Years Since the PhD: What FIve Things Am I?

The Nora Ephron Five Things I Am Today:

1. single, uninvolved, uningaged.
    and i have been this for several decades; at core since 1991

2. unemployed
    I have been this at core since forever; really and truly, except for blips and gigs, do i really have a career;
    ever? one of the farce of my life. no matter what the compilation of incidences on my CV paint

3. clueless about my purpose and work in life; have no idea what i was born to do/ this has also always been
    so

4. am i really these things:
    writer, artist,
    are you really an academic if no institution ever paid you to teach, mentor or research beyond student?
    are you an author by the publication of three essays and a few poems all over the western hemisphere
    map?
    am i really an economist? yes I have a phd that has largely been unused in all its ten years. Ten Years
    (i just got the title to this muse)

5. i like entrepreneurism. i am ambitious and enterprising at heart
    but am i really an entrepreneur?
    yes i have initiated a few attempts, but what is the marker and bar to say one has accomplished?

At No time in my life before now have i ever struggled or queried as to who i really am. or what.

The real list is thus:
1. Alive
2. Ostensibly Phenotypically Black
3. Female Wombmyn
4. Aspiring
5. Perpetual Dreamer

and that says a lot of nothing. but it is as real as it gets..

July 3, 2012
and this is the time of Full Moons, Completions, and Soul Transformations
so what list of New Five Things I Am? What Story Am I Writing?

https://www.facebook.com/notes/dale-osadchuk/03-july-2012-capricorn-full-moon/444508088917167

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Thawenoken Bradd Powless: "Nature isn't pissed at anyone. It just does what it does, protect, change, (fix, adapt, modify) evolve. Humans are the only ones that waste energy dreaming."