The Wisdom of Leo's Fool

Kevin Ervin

‎"The Fool I Am"

The world over, (in which I have not seen in full), surely doesn't revolve around little old me and that's for sure, but....

....I've never...seen a "real"...wise man/woman that was afraid... That was afraid...of being 'the fool' (once and again)......

It is 'the fool' that expands the imaginative mind and therefore branches 'the branches' of one's own (personally) philosophy, that is philosophy, further into 'the unknown' that is actually ever-present...

...And in order...(as said many times before) in order to prevent from being prisoners in the rationale and enslaved through intuition too. ...In other words, in order to prevent being "trapped in the known"....

ME:
i like this. deeply. i have been a fool these past few weeks. something, a frame, concept, inhabitation i have struggled, fought, resisted, resented and ran from my whole life; but just now, about since May 31, I have been a fool. Just so i can break my cycle of eschewing men, one showed up at my door, almost literally...asking him for fruit in his yard, across my street, and then,...so it started...and when I encountered his issues, fears, baggage and his running, I stayed. I persisted. I fought for him. And I have learned a lot. Finally in maturity I learned what it is to navigate the macho male psyche (the real male in a landscape of many forms of effeminate), and what it means to have to navigate and dance to keep peace; and what it is to release the pride and ego, and what it means to be female, when and how, for what purpose, and then how to be graceful with a broken heart...for it is easy and the simple will always take easy rather than fight and fight through, and fight themselves to get to truth, easy is always the lover chosen...and i have learned how many easy women there are out there.. .like leaves on a tree in the tropics, they never fall, there is never any shortage. and all without panties, mind or clothing...I have learned how not to wrangle with that...it is not my fight. I have learned how we cannot control any other, but ourselves. SO i have seen myself be sick with heartbreak and cry, for realizing how i am stands in the way of getting what i want (two manrat in one hole never works), so i had to learn how to find a place where a man i want wants to take place. It has been fascinating. Learning these things in a half life, for a woman, is interesting.

And so now I am learning to let go. release from any expectations.
Then learning how to slip away peaceful, to take on the cloth of indifference not maintain connections.. Learning about humanity, human nature and the motivations of men and when you decide you want to be motivated to be different from your history. its been deep

and no, i dont have baggage. not the male female kind and dynamic, because for years, I stayed out of the ring, and away from men, owing to the fact there are few in number, more males and creatures roaming...so I got saved from bitterness, acrimony, undermining hatred. no male bashing or manhatred to counter...so its been an interesting experience, being a fool for a woman whose heart and soul is open...

but this has been my season of being a fool for a Leo. ;)

(thanks for letting me write this. i would not have otherwise...now it is a blog piece)