Balances to Heavy Revelations

 

 

Maven Huggins

a key, the life question. the answer and the riddle:
who is on your balance?

Brian Pouchet You didn't ask if yuh have a balance

  Brian Pouchet A balance tends to throw off my equalibrium hehehehe

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• Maven Huggins

  everybody has a balance Brian. understand what i mean. a balance is just where one stands and maneuvers (what, who, how)...so by that we realize everyone has a balance. and your balance is your life, how you live, what is important to you,

  what are your priorities, what are your values.
  
  i realized then that part of our problems is we interact, engage, work with and try other endeavors with those who have a balance totally foreign to our own and then for sure. their balance does indeed throw off your equilibrium, often to no positive effects except wisdom

  
  
• Brian Pouchet I try to avoid such persons e.g. Your mind putting your body at risk.

  
  
• Maven Huggins i just had a disturbing revelation a few moments ago, i think for much of my life, since the 90s my life has been under a control not of my mind and hand. a deep soul truth i believe that i cant even wrap my mind around, so grand it is; but for how long the road to this revelation and fully embracing its far reaching impact, I think it is true and accurate
  
  i then think of before that and how i seem to have so few memmories of my life growing up, another peculiarity. like i dont know who i was during high school and need to ask other people, who was i, how was i, i think too point to some kind of sequestering of true self. bizarre crazy musings. but real
  
  your last comment brought this to mind, to share...the realization and coming to the knowledge of how one's life and body and mind is put at risk apart from one's agency...and that is what got me to the realization...i have done things that no sane person would do..and then when i ask how i could have, and come up empty, no sense, no rationale, no legitimacy, i am forced to say , what the phuck, was I asleep or under possession...
  
  and then it gets even more peculiar...the people who love you most will be the ones to harm you, either in this world or the next
  
  sorry ./ not trying to freak you out.. just writing my chronicle on this very public facebook
  i find me peeling my layers and screens on this platform gives me a certain power over self, a truth that one cant back out from; a coming into being that is the most pure possible, perhaps. i dont know Fb. just took over from my journal