*Photo: Original Painting: Eddie Bowen's "Two Women" for his October 2012 Exhibit at Medulla, Trinidad*
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I am not even sure of the pieces, because once they start piling up, i lose clarity. and what first appeared to be an instance then collapses and reveals to be some sort of miracle revelation or instruction, deep wisdom or vision.
but in the last few hours when i prayed, and prayed asking for help and healing and hand, and for Yeshua and Yahweh.Jahweh to Help me and Release Me, and Free Me, and Remove all the obstacles, blockages and heaviness from me so that I could be nothing but Humility< Humble, Peace, Silence, Unmoving Love; that the defense, and protection and fight and response be totally removed as if to have had a character overhaul or a lobotomy, for me to stop thinking and move life from my brain to my heart...I was praying for that, pondering that, wondering how i might give my own self Reiki, how I can lay my own hands but believing it was not as powerful as the Reiki Master I know, Craig Young from Michigan...and wondering how.. how how...it came to me...That if Yeshua touched people and released them, enlightened them and removed weight from them, and healed them, then does that not mean that Craig Young too is a Yeshua? I asked myself that. And then that thought blossomed into a vision and a plan. and connected to a statement a fbriend and past life coach wrote on my page last night/yesterday:
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Maven Huggins:
[my job]
what is my job?
what do i need to make my job?
to survive and thrive?
so if i decide to take the job of model, will life be easier?
if my job is to be liked? to make money?
as opposed to having my current and old job to have character and integrity? morals and ethics? wow.
what is my job?
what do i need to make my job?
to survive and thrive?
so if i decide to take the job of model, will life be easier?
if my job is to be liked? to make money?
as opposed to having my current and old job to have character and integrity? morals and ethics? wow.
Do you see this?
What is your Job?
woo sah!
What is your Job?
woo sah!
So for about an hour or more, I considered how can that happen? is this how this will happen? I bring Craig to Trinidad? I tried once before. Only because me going to him does not work as well. And so much can be wrought, brought and blessed and increased by him coming to Trinidad. So i envisioned how it can happen:
Do i do a media blitz telling my own story of need and decreptitude and the need to be released from the old weights so I can move on in life to make a life And is it that I can videotape or have people gathered to see Craig do his work on me, in public, in a green lush setting? and I think of the hotel in Lopinot that i have never seen as a good venue and also as the best place to let Craig stay while he is here. And I thought I can charge people $1000TT to attend the viewing and a consultation with me. Then now I am thinking another $1000TT to have a session with him. Let them all deposit the money to the bank with a copy of their ID on each receipt and that is their payment and entry. And everything be done in silent. and all people must be in white/ bringing white candles when they come. I am expanding the idea as I write. But that was not the point> I started writing because I woke up to see if Craig Young is on the net.
Now you need to understand, when i knew and visited Craig Young for healing when I lived in Michigan, he was a simple man, a white man, with red hair and beard. Craig eschews all media, technology and the like. Craig, when he works on you, speaks an unknown language, Craig is intergalactic, he is not from earth. When he works on you, he sees and speaks and confers with your guides to help you. Do you realize how much Yeshua he is?? So he is hard to reach
So not finding him on Facebook I then searched the net [Reiki Master Craig Young] . I find nothing. But what do I find on the second page of the search? This:
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Jesus was a Reiki Master - Worldnews.com
article.wn.com/view/2012/08/17/Jesus_was_a_Reiki_Master/
17 Aug 2012 – Reiki, the use of the Universal Life Force Energy, taps into the infinite ... topics reikiuniversal life force energyjesusGod Advertisement Jesus was a Reiki Master. ... Conversion of Paul · Craig Blomberg · Crown of Thorns · Crucifixion ..... a baby with down's syndrome, a young man's tumor, and a Samoan with ...----------
Do you see the universe and guides working??!!
It by chance, synchronicity, providence, brought me back to the core and kernel of my muse and prayer, and insight this morning and giving me proof from the other side, and backward...not from a search of is Craig Young a Yeshua, but if Yeshua was a Reiki Master, doing, etc...
http://article.wn.com/view/2012/08/17/Jesus_was_a_Reiki_Master/
http://www.examiner.com/article/jesus-was-a-reiki-master
then if Craig Young does the same thing to the same effect, then my question is a fact and revelation. Then what am I to do with this confirmation? and seeming universe directional?
But the peculiarity of this still is that i was invited to attend church this morning. I did not go because first I am not too excited about church as a structure, entity or religion, But also because the service was at 7am, and no where have i ever heard of a church service that early that seemed like an assault, a torture, a punishment to souls looking for rest and reprieve in a country where everyone is already sleep and rest deprived, who wake up at godly or ungodly hours to work and school and even on a sunday they cant lay in and get to church on a more measurable time to allow..what? just this sort of personal prayer, revelation and movement? Had I gone to church I would not have gotten this gift.
So I had to write this experience of that alone. As I sit and prayer and think more of how I can make this work into manifestation
And it is funny how obstacles and walls are endlessly being thrown in my path: my aunt coming to live in a house that altered and saw the loss of many resources to expand, and flower some of these unusual thoughts, as basic as losing a land line that allowed me to make international calls--so an easy connection to Craig Young is lost. But it is also the blessing, for it is the last in a long line of trauma that has taken me to new lows and despair that brings me to this possible doorway of salvation...
And this place is so much of assault, while i wrote the last three paragraphs it was to the loudspeaker noise of the church on the corner, a woman's voice repeating Jesus nonstop. that and only that, and i hear it as nothing but stupefying repetition, a lack of thought, a lack of inspiration, a lack of the spirit, so just hypnotize the hungry bereft gathering with the same word as empty as a tin can...it literally is giving me a headache...but repetition of the most holy name in an offensive manner to the environment is not spirituality, in my book, it is just noise.. and we suffer for noise. we dont need more noise. It is why if I do this experience, it will be in silence, we need to know what is silence. We need to know what is not doing and unresponse. Some idea of nonresponse is coming toward me. Not here yet.
But i wonder how i can make this happen. As I did so< i asked myself who is like me? who are the people who need this healing and help from Craig and myself most and I think of women, stressed out women. Broken and depressed women who are still walking their path. As proof I think of my cousin's very public testimony yesterday that surprised me:
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Vanessa Bailey wrote a recommendation for Judy Jacobs.
"Hi - This may sound weird - but I am moved to write you. I live in the West Indies Trinidad and I recently went through a rough period. Am a widow with two girls a teen and toddler and a mom who is depressed. I am not sure where your book came from "Take it By Force" but I read it and it was such a BLESSING.
It has changed my out look and perspective. Lots going on but to GOD BE THE GLORY FOR THE GREAT THINGS HE HAS DONE.
Stay the course - Much Love
Vee"
Judy Jacobs
Religious organisation · Cleveland, Tennessee
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Now here again I have to wonder what time and season and calling is this? For Vanessa appeared to delete this wondrously authentic post for I could not find it on her stream. But because I had copied it to a mail to her heralding and acknowledging the post, her journey, my surprise at her boldness of her truth...and my offer to talk to and with her about her depression...I had it. But I just shared with her this about deleting it:
"Morning. Good Morning Vans,
I am here working on something powerful right now.
Something that would not have happened had I gone to church
I was looking for your wonderful soul testimony that you posted on Friday but I cant find it...and I am really hoping you did not delete it. And my soul gets real disappointed if you did, cause it makes me feel you are not yet real and authentic about yourself, your journey and your experience and the power of it to transform, transform yourself and others who are strengthened by it.
That would be so sad.
and especially when I was making it a platform to herald, in this written piece and vision, and revelation...ah..
so it is.. what ever it is. Let me know. if it exists somewhere so i can include it. I also wanted to send this piece to a few people: you , Marcia, and a female pastor friend I had in Michigan...
as people who were central in the making of it. See how we never know the power of what we do on the face of the earth, and what blessings we deny by removing it.. selah!!
I will see how i am led
love you"
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I do believe in the unending power of personal testimony. I wrote a poem years ago Y(Our) Story...telling folk that when you write your testimony, you write mine, and give me voice for what I may not have the words, blood, belly and balls (womb) for...So we should never hesitate when it moves us to tell, talk, share.
[long pause]
i was waiting for more insight to come to me. more direction. i am bereft. I search Rev Smith. i have not seen or talked to her in years, over ten? She used to be cast as a feminist pastor like the beloved and deceased Rev Linda H. Hollies, I so wish i could have her instead. but she is gone,. She wrote some powerful books that all women in Yeshua should read..
http://www.amazon.com/Linda-H.-Hollies/e/B001JS5FAM/ref=sr_tc_2_0?qid=1350825899&sr=1-2-ent
But one thing that occurred to me this morning at the time of initial planning and revelation is that I did not want to have anyone involved without clean hands. In relation to reaching out to people in Trinidad..and thought of getting a PR firm to run the marketing. I thought did i really want to do that. As crazy as it sounds, I want to keep this spiritually clean, pure and sound>
Unbelievable.
I have no idea why and how the universe gives me these insights and visions and does not give me the means and directions to implement, and complete. Sigh. Send Help
I plan to call the gathering The Monastery
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