10.11.12
today was such 'that day' that i dont have appropos words sufficient enough to describe it in any measure and never to approach its magnitude.
days like this i miss my journal, even though there is one, it exists. it seems weird to document this compendium / almost as if anything said, thought or written would be inadequate. almost as if it is so significant as to turn back on itself and be nothing encompassing
lets just line item for memory sake:
not to elicit care where none exists
1. deep emotional and physical discomfort- anxious at awakening/ puzzled. i now wonder what was happening at that hour: interestingly enough it was between 10-11-12o'clock
2. photoshoot. entry
3. phone call: no friend. retraction of support. renege on letter. the support that was going to make a plan workable rescinded; only negativity given to fill the appointment. i want that person to forget my number. and soon i intend to make that easy.
4. photoshoot ended up being a spiritual encounter. being recognized being and an opening of paths to correction, cleansing, clearing, instruction and next center of orientation.
a fifteen minute plan turned into a five hour conversation. among strangers.
5. clarity: deep heaviness. My life needs a clearing of much overhead, forest canopy, a thinning of trees and slashing of ground thickets. just where i find cover is the place i need to run from
6. what utter udder madness: madness feeding and breeding more of itself
hearing myself tell stories of experiences confirmed in my heart ad hearing that some real crazy stuff is going on. Lots. And from so many varied as if all corners.
first born dynamics. generational curses. resentment of blessings. projections of others' crosses. dumping of others' stuff. carrying others blame responsibility and punishment. and plain direct curses. things and people come but nothing stays
i was told the spiritual rank is high, so what combats is also of high power and amplified/ i was told of deep confusion is the means by which it gets in and under. Yeshua Yahweh, Only
i was told when you encounter any of claim, ask them by what authority, under whose or what commands, they gain.
i was told that much is being done to keep me from my purpose. the purpose that appeared lost to me. but the key and answer intimated lies with, in and is related to the beings who hate me the most, effortlessly. and the person said it before I divulged anything, which brought laughter and me asking them 'why did yu say that?' and they replying, 'why did you laugh?'
i was told this is a high time, grand shifts, and many are under amazing pressure to make them implode and not be able to commit their work for the hour.
i was told that the world is upside down, and the good is darkness and darkness is the light. and people./beings come to do their bidding, fulfill prophecy and what is written, as it is written, regardless of morphs, changes, true identity or encounters with the cheshire cat
i was told to order my day at the appointed hour/not to let others do it. for it is so done. and the muslims have it right to kneel, bow and in prostration
about the part where so much is twisted in on itself, and evildark is called light and light is really evil and corruption, clarify your names and identity and who you think is who. the taking of names is to shield
and by now, i am thinking sometimes it is great to be confused cause then you get to the truth, whereas if you live not embracing all, you would have latched on to the wrong energy and commands, unmovable. becareful of what you think you know. but i was also told it is better to proclaim one thing and it be the wrong thing, focused energy rather than scattered to all, no master
i was told to ask my guides, who sent them and commanded them to do what. you think they will answer?
i was told i need a space to do the work and dont start if i am not going to get to the finish, for the furies and pandora...well..
and it is okay to write this cause it is none of you with evil or jealous eye. it is not 'friends' aint that something> the end all and be all of all things? the origins
but today i know there is no friend or friendship. nothing is as it seems. no one is who you think they are. trust no one for you know not what beings and energy and demons lurk there beneath that smile, the hand, the embrace or history
oh. the source and providence of all this? a random inbox message from a stranger, unknown, not even a fbriend. Just so
Do watch for signs and wonders, it might be the only salvation
afterthoughts and remembrances:
* the stars are of its own dominion and kingdom; one of thirteen i believe?
and of the stars are of Lucifer, supposedly > see? the light, the stars, the stellar, are actually the depths
today was such 'that day' that i dont have appropos words sufficient enough to describe it in any measure and never to approach its magnitude.
days like this i miss my journal, even though there is one, it exists. it seems weird to document this compendium / almost as if anything said, thought or written would be inadequate. almost as if it is so significant as to turn back on itself and be nothing encompassing
lets just line item for memory sake:
not to elicit care where none exists
1. deep emotional and physical discomfort- anxious at awakening/ puzzled. i now wonder what was happening at that hour: interestingly enough it was between 10-11-12o'clock
2. photoshoot. entry
3. phone call: no friend. retraction of support. renege on letter. the support that was going to make a plan workable rescinded; only negativity given to fill the appointment. i want that person to forget my number. and soon i intend to make that easy.
4. photoshoot ended up being a spiritual encounter. being recognized being and an opening of paths to correction, cleansing, clearing, instruction and next center of orientation.
a fifteen minute plan turned into a five hour conversation. among strangers.
5. clarity: deep heaviness. My life needs a clearing of much overhead, forest canopy, a thinning of trees and slashing of ground thickets. just where i find cover is the place i need to run from
6. what utter udder madness: madness feeding and breeding more of itself
hearing myself tell stories of experiences confirmed in my heart ad hearing that some real crazy stuff is going on. Lots. And from so many varied as if all corners.
first born dynamics. generational curses. resentment of blessings. projections of others' crosses. dumping of others' stuff. carrying others blame responsibility and punishment. and plain direct curses. things and people come but nothing stays
i was told the spiritual rank is high, so what combats is also of high power and amplified/ i was told of deep confusion is the means by which it gets in and under. Yeshua Yahweh, Only
i was told when you encounter any of claim, ask them by what authority, under whose or what commands, they gain.
i was told that much is being done to keep me from my purpose. the purpose that appeared lost to me. but the key and answer intimated lies with, in and is related to the beings who hate me the most, effortlessly. and the person said it before I divulged anything, which brought laughter and me asking them 'why did yu say that?' and they replying, 'why did you laugh?'
i was told this is a high time, grand shifts, and many are under amazing pressure to make them implode and not be able to commit their work for the hour.
i was told that the world is upside down, and the good is darkness and darkness is the light. and people./beings come to do their bidding, fulfill prophecy and what is written, as it is written, regardless of morphs, changes, true identity or encounters with the cheshire cat
i was told to order my day at the appointed hour/not to let others do it. for it is so done. and the muslims have it right to kneel, bow and in prostration
about the part where so much is twisted in on itself, and evildark is called light and light is really evil and corruption, clarify your names and identity and who you think is who. the taking of names is to shield
and by now, i am thinking sometimes it is great to be confused cause then you get to the truth, whereas if you live not embracing all, you would have latched on to the wrong energy and commands, unmovable. becareful of what you think you know. but i was also told it is better to proclaim one thing and it be the wrong thing, focused energy rather than scattered to all, no master
i was told to ask my guides, who sent them and commanded them to do what. you think they will answer?
i was told i need a space to do the work and dont start if i am not going to get to the finish, for the furies and pandora...well..
and it is okay to write this cause it is none of you with evil or jealous eye. it is not 'friends' aint that something> the end all and be all of all things? the origins
but today i know there is no friend or friendship. nothing is as it seems. no one is who you think they are. trust no one for you know not what beings and energy and demons lurk there beneath that smile, the hand, the embrace or history
oh. the source and providence of all this? a random inbox message from a stranger, unknown, not even a fbriend. Just so
Do watch for signs and wonders, it might be the only salvation
afterthoughts and remembrances:
* the stars are of its own dominion and kingdom; one of thirteen i believe?
and of the stars are of Lucifer, supposedly > see? the light, the stars, the stellar, are actually the depths
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