Saturday, October 13, 2012

The Three Gifts and Providence; The Week of October 8 - 12, 2012

John, Good Morning

I have something i want to share with you, to hear your spiritual response and perspective
I think context is important. Context is: I was not looking, planning or wanting to do this.
It seemed like it was planned and ordained, orchestrated through a variety of steps and
persons to arrive me on this woman's doorstep/ A Tarot card Hindu Reader.

She begins and from the cards that fall out she tells me "my life is under a very strong
powerful curse; She asked me if I had an affair with a married man. The wife buried my
picture in a cometary and that is why my life is in total chaos. I cant get work, I cant move
I cant get anything; Money does not stay in my hands, All my relationships are rot.
Anyone who likes me will soon become disenchanted.There are blockages everywhere

She said it was extreme. And she did not have the ability to help, But referred me to
someone in NY if you can believe.

But I have been pondering it ever since. I have been wracking my brain for who it could be.
I told her all I knew and it was not them, but off the bat she said, you may not have known,
"you know they can mask themselves" so as if the man was married but I never knew.

Apart from wracking my brain as to who could do this, because it is a peculiar story as I was
 in the states qt the time and who knew people did such things over there, and eve she admits
 that it is hard to do over there, but then i think that sounds like something for over here
so that is one peculiarity. where it occurred.

But apart from that I had recognized my life had become a mess since the 2000, but when
i look at it, it might even be before. She also told me that my uterine problems with fibroids
\are connected to this  curse but that has been detected and happening since 1991.
My first surgery at 1994 and returning 9mos later. So i mark after 1991, 1993, when my
last significant relationship lasted. But for the life of me, I cannot figure out who this was

What do you think> I write you because part of me believes it is true. and i felt lighter
when i got the news, like confirmation that this is not about me. this is not my doing or for
 lack of trying.. But another part of me, for meeting people like you regarding the spiritual
aspect makes me rethink or wonder if such a curse could exist.

I am kind of confused.
some part of me thinks the reading might be wrong in its attribution..that it may not be me
I have had two affairs with married men in my life, one at 28, the other at 35. and generally
I frown upon it.

I loaned a woman 10K for her business in April. She was to pay me back each month for
five months. It is now October, we had a contract. She has never paid me a cent. The reader
told me i would not get my money back and if i do anything, like post her name and photo in
 the paper, she could do me something. She told me not to make enemies of anyone for
in this day, everyone knows someone who can do something. So i might get hurt
Could you imagine?

I feel better but flummoxed all at the same time

Tell me what you think, Spiritually for what you know and understand/
And understand and know one thing. NOTHING In my life has worked for a long time
My life has been stagnant since 2000, but I can see before then, signs of something,
since 1991/1993

It has been unbelievable if i werent living it and processing and dealing with it in aplomb
i think

Another thing, watching a half a program of talking books on bbc, with author Richard
Long I think, I heard him say something: the luxury of all conditions to write and be a novelist
I think with all this nothingness, I might try to do that.I just wish i had the accoutrements like
proper office set up. But even as i write that, the excellent conditions have been destroyed
by an aunt who she and i dont mix blood again. and that is classic of what the reader
described; i have and am ensconced in a negative bubble that makes all turn from me
so even as i write, I am hearing her noise of carnival music on the radio. me and my mom
are quiet types

Alright i gone..



 Thank you for sharing this. Allah truly knows best. Allah is truth and what follows below may not be accurate. Any errors are mine for sure!

So let me give you what I have been able to glean, and I make no claim to be anything but someone who loves you and cares deeply about your happiness and who has seen your superlative success all around you, like budding seeds hidden in rich soil, waiting to push through into the light.

 What I see you need to do is reset your Centre through going inward.

Let's discuss the components of this process, one by one.

First of all, what's past is past. Part of my being where I am today (which is mostly confused, lonely and miserable) is
facing up to shit I have done in the past of which I am truly ashamed. Bad stuff. When I was younger I was not a very nice person. I was very analytical, too cerebral. I was trained in philosophy and logic. I was insensitive to the emotional impact of my actions on people who loved me - especially my daughters.

So my advice to you would be to let go whatever happened in your past. You were a different soul, at a different level of spiritual evolution. For things that happened in your past, I recommend that you try to find the two affected women, you contact them and you make a genuine apology - GENUINE. No subtext - "Did you work obeah on me?". Just try to find them and make contact, an email, a phone call, a sincere conversation. Wish them well.
 I have sought people that I hurt in the past and they all told me they held no ill feelings and had moved on with their lives.

Second message: The most important person in this story is You. You are Allah, God. We dynamically create our reality, good or bad. Obeah cannot affect you unless you  choose to let it. My advice is that you need to emphasise your great empathic  and spiritual gifts and switch off the PhD analytic side. In the US you may have had to constantly defend your place in the world, always defend and argue your point of view. At this stage in your journey, this mental attitude is not conducive to spiritual growth and is not helping you.

I have one of my interminable stories. A couple came to see Imam Ali (may Allah's Peace and Blessings be upon him). They said "We are told to give charity but we are the poorest of the poor.
How can we give what we don't have?" Imam Ali told them that they completely underestimated what they had to give. He said "whenever you meet anyone you can gift them with your smile".

So this is your first assignment - to switch off the "now how can I defend myself against this new person who's trying to screw me over" attitude and offer a warm genuine smile.

Your second assignment - is to give something without fail to the next ten people you meet and tell me how your experience was.
I went to the Unipet in Mucurapo one Sunday afternoon looking for papers. This man asked me to get something for him to eat. So I gave him a box of KFC. I told him i was disappointed that the papers were sold out. He told me "Try Crichlow's Pharmacy in St. James." He gave me something back, not that I was looking for anything but it warmed my heart that this street dweller had reached a higher maqam, a higher station than I had attained earlier in my life.

 The third thing is a prayer of healing/ protection given to me by Abid Bhaiyya for my cousin when she was diagnosed with breast cancer.  He said it is good for women's ovaries. He gave this to me 3-4 years ago and I thought I had lost the Post-It but do you know, I found it a week or so ago! It must be for you.
He said to say it three times. You can say it as many times as you feel comfortable, before going to sleep, when you awake, whatever. So here's the prayer:

"La illaha il Allah
Get rid of evil delusions
Cure and be cured
All healing belongs to Allah alone.
La illahah il Allah Muhammad Rasullah."

I don't want to make any claims but my cousin has been fine after her surgery.

Love love only LOVE!
Your biggest fan,
John


 About writing. You don't need a good computer or a nice office to write. J.K. Rowling was a single mother on the dole in the UK. She used to take her baby to the local burger joint to write.
Harry Potter started off as notes in her grotty copybook.

From my iPad


 Don't think about money. It is yours depending on what you give to the universe. It will come. Offer your experiences up. You'll be fine. Life is not a balance sheet. The balance is Love. Give loving kindness.



me:

this is all rich John. I will do them all.
i dont have words right now except to say i will do them.
I cant find the women cause i dont know who they are;
and really and truly, i can ask for forgiveness which i have done, but i dont need to turn up paved ground..."let the past be the past"

John:
Great! 

When I look at you I am blown away by your power and potential. It's like standing next to a large Mercedes Benz and hearing the engine purring quietly. That is you! 
Blessings

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