Belief Facts Fiction Myths

is there any source and value to derive in the word believe being
be lie ve
that could be : "be lie see" "be live a lie"
in any case is there anything to mine in the fact that lie is in the middle of belief?

if you ask me what i believe right now I will be hard pressed to answer i think so long i have been asked or ask myself that question but i know my life has disbanded with so many of them. starting with who i think i am, what i believe about myself and the world I live in and what came before and what living is about. so much. my place in it...etc etc etc...

beliefs is what fucks us up i see. clearly
it allows us to hide ourselves from truth, reality, facts
drowning being dragged behind moving eighteen ton truck wheelers and flagged after jet spray.. for our beliefs

an interesting thing

i am also coming so completely close and clear to mending the breach of who i might think i am as a human fossil and entity, related and connected to those who have gone before me. and there are some surprises: Asians. First Peoples and for Sure, Africans. Black Melanin Indigenous Folk. i have learned genetics so my allegiance cant be greater to metaphors, allegories, imaginations, myths and creative stolen identities that have and show no real gene dna connection to my existence. and even if so, it cant be at the expense of those whose mirror image is mine there is some madness in that.

and that is the thing.
we live such norms of pathology and dysfunction and called that normative
it is scary as shit. but this is the world erected and created for us.
by whom you never ask. for whom you never ask, and for what purpose, you never consider

but all the while, ready to wield swords for those who have and would slit your throat

i just cant.
i am about the business of gathering up my fragments to make a whole
i am not at the church or altar burning candles to symbols of my destruction, identity and cultural theft, and various crypts for parts of my broken unknown self.
no sah

so forgive me
i am usually not declarative cause i am and have not been apart of and from anything under the sun. but as these days grow more cumbersome, I am finding it necessary to powder out the territory. folk keep getting lost in parts round me.

there are some things that i shall always be for. they include justice. truth. thriving. striving and struggling ceased to be on the list. i learned we claim those words but they are the source of our living death and deadliness.

after justice and truth i am for righteousness.. i think superseding all that I am for mother nature. she keeps me breathing and living. in her womb of this planet earth so from and first and after that, everything else and next.

just being logical
or trying. at least. with magick