On May 12, 2012, at 4:04 AM,---I wrote:
Hi Sasha.
I have missed you in my life.
It is Melise. For weeks i have been trying to reach Ron from MSU<
but for many reasons was not successful. Last night I dreamt of him
n a dream where i returned to Michigan and met new young students
and Ron was my host of a kind and met a Lebanese guy who fed me from
his sale cart of pizzas, baked goods, fruit and vegetables and some
of the students let me stay in some very crowded academic
apartment..
Anyway, i have always longed for you and Ron and the family. Your
family is beautiful. Seems we had such an incredible bonding
experience but i for one did not recognise the magnitude of it for
years and years. And what spurred the completion of that recently
was my wish and aim and reaching out to be a midwife and douala and
of course I remembered the experiences with you and Bodhi and been
trying to put the pieces together since then. I tried to get MSU to
help me but i could not even remember Ron'[s name if you will
believe. Not even Ron. It just recently came back to me and I could
not remember your name. AND last night'[s dream did it. I decided to
search this morning "Ron and Bodhi" and his company came up and I
saw your name. SMH> I am not as debilitated as this sounds but my
memory is its own entity.
HOW ARE YOU? You look great in your douala page..The family
glows...you all were always so white. LOL>..but Ron I always thought
looked like he was mixed to me. Always. those dark set eyes.
I am happy to reconnectl. To write these letters to you and Ron. You
all were a spectacular story and experience in my pantheon yet do
not hold the space you should in my life. I find that odd and
unacceptable so I am trying to do what i need to to make that right.
You all now will say what you are comfortable with
I am in Trinidad. Been here for nine years on the 16th of this
month. And I realize and sense it is the time of completion and
perfections. I am making moves to leave. This was never a place for
me, but a place to heal and gather myself to some semblance of whole
after the phd. I dont fit here. Probably fit no where but now i am
an artist, chef, entrepreneur of a kind but make no money to speak
of, but everyone thinks I am rich...I am putting it out in the
universe to do global house sitting. So we will see how that goes.
And I write. A lot. Published a few pieces in these intervening
years. I wish to do that more...and more and more.
That is it. I have no personal news to report. No husbands, children
but I still hold out hope. I dream of going back to school, medical
or midwife but that has not worked out . not that I wanted to do
more school. I am sick of school. If i have children i wont be
sending them...but i just wanted to be legit and qualified for what
I say i wanted to do. Help WOmen.
Are you on fB? I am Maven Huggins there. ID Protection. I have
several pages. Women Inspired. Unemployed Trinidad. ArtPost
Trinidad , MERIKINS>.. and Huggins Hearty Healthy Healing Foods.
I wanted to do organic farming here but getting land is madness if
you are not a drug dealer or money launderer. THe MERIKINS thing is
interesting...I discovered i come from Americans who fought for the
british in the War of 1812 and were rewarded lands in trinidad.
amazing stories, histories and mine;)
I just want you all to be a part as you already are. So I write to reconnect
LEts see what happens now.
Embraces and DEEP :Love
Melise
Quoting Sasha Williams
> Oh my goodness. Melise! Super big smile in my heart. So glad you
> found us! So glad to reconnect. And I've missed you in our lives,
> too, and thought of you often in the time since we moved to Hawaii.
> I feel the same about the depth and significance of the connection
> and would very much like to grow it! Lots to talk about and catch
> up on, I'm sure. And very perfect timing, of course. I can see
> that midwifery would be a very good fit for you. You have a keen
> connection to calmness in the face of challenge, and a special
> ability to help people get where they need to go (at least you did
> so for me). Do it! Shoots. Would be LOVELY to do midwifery
> together here in Hawaii...! I'm pursuing midwifery now, myself.
> Been attending homebirths as an apprentice with an awesome midwife
> mentor, and entering nursing school (yuck-o on the school-o) in the
> fall. One doesn't have to go to school to become a midwife, though,
> you know. There are other paths. My own path has been full of
> synchronicity, confirmation, and wide open doors. In fact, you very
> much helped to unlock those doors!
>
> Perhaps we can find time for a phone call in the next week? Or yes,
> can also do a real time chat on FB, maybe easier for the
> international phone charges. I'll look for you there, though my
> presence of fb is intermittent.
>
> Would love to welcome you to the Big Island of Hawaii...its a pretty
> phenomenal place. Perhaps Pele, the Goddess of the Volcano, is
> calling you here in (y)our dreams...
>
> And global housesitting is a good fit for Hawaii, too. Don't know if
> Hawaii is where you see yourself (some hard things about living here
> as a Black woman, for sure), but maybe do some searching on the Big
> Island, especially Hilo area, to see if there is a place you might
> land to get your feet wet, so to speak? At least for a visit? You
> already know island life...and this place either welcomes us or spits
> us back out. So if the spirit moves, check it out and lets see what
> synchronicity may do to bring us together in physical time once
> again. And of course we can be a landing pad, too!
>
> Love, light, luminosity, and laughter heading your way!
> sasha
> p.s. I'm finishing up coursework for a nutrition class today, so
> let's be in touch again in a couple days.
>
>
Amazing Response. Sasha
I am glad that you are going to school for nursing so you can teach me later ;)
I would love to come to Hawaii. I am literally, hand on a pulse waiting for the wind to guide me where to go and land. Seriously. You have no idea. Thank you for making it so welcoming. I will look to see what I find in terms of house sitting or means in Hawaii...
I am stumped surprise to hear that I played some role in you finding your path and thanks for the accolade. It is amazing to me how different souls find and embrace us. You shore me up today.
Yes, we will continue talking as your life allows
"Black Wombmyn in Odd Places" story aside, I only hope my past has created me for what ever challenges and alientations i may have to endure. Lord Knows that is what I am trying to move on from now. Still searching for my rightful place and people. And life work...
Until Again,
Glad to be connected
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