Where and With Whom One Belongs

Maven Huggins on Facebook - Another Entry of Ethnography HerStory

i had sustained long rambling and return to dreams last night --telling and confirming for me that if I reach out, and launch, the universe will provide and gift all i need.

i was in Michigan, seems I went in search of Ron, and met new people, young students and Lebanese folk who housed me in their apartment and fed me from off a food truck of all kinds of goodies: fruit, vegetables, baked goods, sandwiches and pizzas...

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i am not without being held
Good Morning

• • Marcia Smith You probably need to go back. Staying here has done nothing for you but bring fustration.

    
    
  • Marcia Smith Cant offer change to anyone who is not ready to embrace it.

    
    
  • Maven Huggins ♥. you have no idea how close I feel I am. but i also learned deeply it is not for me to go back. what has passed. is in the past. I need to keep propelling forward. that dream was for two purposes: for me to reconnect with that guy. I of all odd of all odd people was the sole person to stand in the gap when his wife gave birth and slammed hard in warp speed in to post partum depression resultiing in very extreme bizarre behavior and institutionalization. I kept the home, took care of the baby, cooked and cleaned. I did not realize or embrace how significant that story until recently and was asking myself how is it that me and them are not bonded for life. But we are. at least on my side. And that dream helped me find them today. They are in Hawaii.
    
    the other purpose of that dream was to show me to step out from nothing, with nothing and the universe will hold me up.; folk will appear to give me bridge and step.
    
    i am close Marcia. I am very close. thank you for your words and your support and seeing my truth ♥

     

    Maven Huggins and it was not that trinidad was not good for me to me or necessary. it was. it was a place for me to heal and gather my pieces, correct my vision, understand clearly where and to whom i belong. and to move forward with correct and clean perspective and vision. and that was huge. that is huge. I thank Marjorie Baptiste for that. it is all so phenomenal. when i tell you i am so clear on so many things...the person you met has a different story and telling of her story ;) hahaha...
    
    anyways. I felt i wanted to document that...that Trinidad has been good for my soul. not much else but that is okay and that is what it was for and how it was to be. nothing else.
    
    I earned money here. money to save and money to lend as a broker. I lived in the three spectacular houses not including my family house where I am now. Most dont live that good. I was just thinking before i started writing i was born to privilege and nothing has changed. That is still the lesson.. to trust and I will be carried.
    
    So i am grateful. I did not come here to change. anyone or anything. just myself. i am invisible, unworthy and of no significance to so many. i want to say all but that is not true.
    
    I woke up thinking of people who dont know me from Adama who have supported gave and gifted me. Even for what others may see as inconsequential. I think of the Su who gives me tea . i think of you and your gifts Marcia and my ArtPost Trinidad. you know you can list that as one of your accomplishments hahaha.. it is all so rich. So much beauty in the interspaces and down to and with good souls. so...Just ♥

     

    Maven Huggins i have Conrad Enill to thank for being on facebook. Imagine that.
    Imagine that. Imagine that...(my future is from and gainstayed from this fb. I offered to help someone yesterday that sparked a huge fire of possibility. on this facebook. When I move forward, it will be this facebook that keeps me in communication with those who planted my garden. This facebook.
    
    I feel i am in this very calm reflective euphoria.
    The time is near coming to a close.
    
    Nine Years since i been in THis Trinidad/ come the 16th of This SuperMoon Month and 2012 Year ;)

    
    
  • Maven Huggins it is good to know where and with whom one belongs. and it is good. all good.