Friday, March 27, 2015

This Deeply Flawed Me

 “We are flawed creatures, all of us. Some of us think that means we should fix our flaws. But get rid of my flaws and there would be no one left.”
― Sarah Vowell, Take the Cannoli

 
 i searched "deeply flawed black women and she popped up among many others...then the depiction i got from the images was the "black angry woman" which i have never seen framed in deep flaws or to explain as one whose life experiences have changed them

----http://www.forharriet.com/2015/02/why-being-mary-jane-and-being-our.html#axzz3VdCsd5dN
  
trying to read and research about flawed characters but all i am getting is a host of banal, really stupid, superficial bullshit...about lies, casual sex, drugs. give me a break. those are flaws? those are practices.
maybe i am not flawed at all. maybe I just dont stick bullshit and i am mad enough to deal with it head on, confront it. i saw a line in here about a core of steel and think of that lady who called me iron years ago. she saw me i think.
i also think i have wrapped myself in anger from hurt, from since day one
my vulnerabilities though i think them obvious, i think too i do not explain them, people never get to see them. why would you show them when you are always under attack? or when people are always seeking to command, shit on , or best you in ways that do not keep you well situated or healthy.

if it is this tripe the world is calling flawed, no wonder we are destroying the planet and calling it progress and development.
i am trying to check myself but i only come up with more bullshit as mirroring

 http://www.theguardian.com/books/2015/jan/03/gone-girl-effect



are deeply flawed women, and deeply flawed black women less acceptable than deeply flawed men? understanding that what deeply flawed means need to be defined, deconstructed, explained. ...i search...and the article i come up with speaks volumes: the need for writers editors and publishers to make female characters ;likeable' and i think of the word nice. when someone calls you nice it is not a compliment. it means you are a damn idiot who can be walked over with any footwear, by anybody;; that their agenda will never be thwarted by you. that is nice.

and what makes people say someone is likeable or nice, when they are unthreatened by them, when their insecurities and issues are not roused but comforted, calmed, cosseted and cradled.

women who are mentally emotionally hermaphrodites...manly feminine women...
how are they taken?
or when hard times affect your personality, make you more intractable, more insular, and thus more offensive especially when you see the people judging you cant hold a candle to your feet, their lives cant match yours for nothing, but yea, their standards are the ones that dont even appear on your radar. you are at the top five chakras, and note, there are at least three above your head. so yeah, i am talking you are at the heart throat, third eye, universal, intergalactic chakra and they are at the base, talking about where your excrement comes from. how does that work> demonization is the tool of the company


"the arbitrary pivotal moment that means destruction or survival"

" flaws as scars that life has left on her."

i am now ready to cheat with the unsatisfactory clay conditions i was given as my life

http://jane-davis.co.uk/2015/02/20/outside-the-box-why-flawed-characters-are-utterly-compelling/

do women have the privilege to be flawed? and black women less so?

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