"Racism does not care that not all Black people act the same. It's no
point trying to reason with an ideology that is based on ignorance."
i know this. i know this personally...
i can look back in amusement...
cause i was and would think: i am unusual black girl. i grew up in privilege. i grew up internationally. i grew up with white leather cowboy boots. had a car since i was sixteen..i am smart and sharp as a tack intellect. i write collections, publish essays. i have protocols, stock. lineage, propriety...I DID> i am quality. I have education. I can do a whole heap of stuff.
EH HEH???
Wow. that bubble busted over a decade ago
first when i saw brothers make no distinction between ratchet hood wenches and uptown princesses.....long ago in life i was bemused by some thing: i have always felt there were men i could not measure up to, would never consider...but in turn i wondered why dont i see this in males. that there are some people outside your league and please act accordingly. does. not. exist. i dont know if i have that same perspective now or if it has been swapped for something far more salient...i find you are more likely to meet men and males who are cads across status, exposure age, qualifications, accomplishments...the one line consistent among all of them is that they know how to treat women badly...so i stay away equally...
but i have come to know that i am just another negro girl and that comes out across gender, age, ...the only difference is the ones who know that i am not regular, in a country like trinidad, just ignore me, blank me, sideline me, wont let me in to give their incompetence competition...the bottom other side...will just sidle off quielty knowing the league thing...but guess what...the outcome is the same no matter the quarter it emerges..
fascinating
being "good" dont matter
and that is why i have been done with that program
folk will always look to see something that dehumanizes you, makes you less than them.. i experienced that a few months ago with a clutch of women, most of them white or less melanin, some thinking they are special for being an expat...and i remember when i lived in that too..in zimbabwe...but back then, it seemed that within your group you still gravitated and connected. i dont know. it seems the more time passes, the older i get, the more i learn how alike we all are is the more i have experiences in small petty places that create designations to separate and alienate,
hm
and i laugh at the negros who try to be good thinking that will give them entree and inclusion.. and now i am like jesus flipping over the table...i have no desire to sup at your table. me with my linens, silver, draped in diamonds, gold, mined colored stones and knowledge to recite your future...i will just sit at the stream and read a book or listen the water.
badassblackbe
i know this. i know this personally...
i can look back in amusement...
cause i was and would think: i am unusual black girl. i grew up in privilege. i grew up internationally. i grew up with white leather cowboy boots. had a car since i was sixteen..i am smart and sharp as a tack intellect. i write collections, publish essays. i have protocols, stock. lineage, propriety...I DID> i am quality. I have education. I can do a whole heap of stuff.
EH HEH???
Wow. that bubble busted over a decade ago
first when i saw brothers make no distinction between ratchet hood wenches and uptown princesses.....long ago in life i was bemused by some thing: i have always felt there were men i could not measure up to, would never consider...but in turn i wondered why dont i see this in males. that there are some people outside your league and please act accordingly. does. not. exist. i dont know if i have that same perspective now or if it has been swapped for something far more salient...i find you are more likely to meet men and males who are cads across status, exposure age, qualifications, accomplishments...the one line consistent among all of them is that they know how to treat women badly...so i stay away equally...
but i have come to know that i am just another negro girl and that comes out across gender, age, ...the only difference is the ones who know that i am not regular, in a country like trinidad, just ignore me, blank me, sideline me, wont let me in to give their incompetence competition...the bottom other side...will just sidle off quielty knowing the league thing...but guess what...the outcome is the same no matter the quarter it emerges..
fascinating
being "good" dont matter
and that is why i have been done with that program
folk will always look to see something that dehumanizes you, makes you less than them.. i experienced that a few months ago with a clutch of women, most of them white or less melanin, some thinking they are special for being an expat...and i remember when i lived in that too..in zimbabwe...but back then, it seemed that within your group you still gravitated and connected. i dont know. it seems the more time passes, the older i get, the more i learn how alike we all are is the more i have experiences in small petty places that create designations to separate and alienate,
hm
and i laugh at the negros who try to be good thinking that will give them entree and inclusion.. and now i am like jesus flipping over the table...i have no desire to sup at your table. me with my linens, silver, draped in diamonds, gold, mined colored stones and knowledge to recite your future...i will just sit at the stream and read a book or listen the water.
badassblackbe
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