YOU

you fb people who no longer engage and share friendship on the pages and profiles, but as soon as you need something done outside virtual, you show up. i said i would try to stop curshing* crushing*, but you can imagine the two word suggestion.

but a thought woke me up. i was thinking of my longest friend here in trinidad. and i dont know why, the specific thought was the few times he has told me about myself or reminded me of my previous incarnations before my current standing,  energy, character, verve. and i thought how interminably valuable to have that...someone who can tell you who you were, before life got a hold. before it *** you up.
and then you know what i thought? I thought of this place trinidad. and i got an epiphany. wondering thinking about who would know about that kind of trauma, the experience of this place taking your energy, your excitement, your joy to do something valuable in the landscape, a time of yourself when everything was promised, everything is possible, and you are merely marching your way to it. a time of yourself before you were crushed and chewed up/ broken.

and then there was this:






 If you dont know anyone in your life with that experience. and if you had the means to stop and or reverse such a trend, pattern, and fix that person's circumstance, You my friend are part of the problem in this country. And I cant think of any circumstance in which exceptions apply

this place only works by the failure of many others. and this is so because most fo the people succeeding are the true failures, the true weaklings, weak links, the treacherous and irrelevant, but had the money and connections to attain position, power, money. and they are just as vacuous with all of that as they would be without. and not nary one is doing anything meaningful for the nation, just taking and on the fattening program/

a series of thoughts in a short space of time

"if you dont know people whose life this place has destroyed, you are the problem"

good morning