Family Clan OUTING

i have no understanding of why or the worth to be wise, develop wisdom, have a keen sense of observation, seeing human nature after I lived in a bubble of ignorance and naivete.

none at all.

but i see things

what goes around does indeed come around

people do and dont do for others cause they just dont care . dont care about the person, dont care about right, wrong or morality

i see the silence and participation of others out of cowardice

i see people standing for nothing and if you have the balls to state what is wrong, folk will rage at you.

i see how twisted people are, and they make assertions on others not based on the person at all, but on their madness. projection

it is like folk create a scenario in their head, singularly, and act on it, thereupon building conflict and confrontation, when the person they project onto is oblivious and clueless

and life is nothing but politics and dynamics based on the above and how much they lack pedigree, character or bravery

all that i saw today, and more

and i had nothing to do with any part, i was a mere observer,

in some cases i was the one projected on, but i was oblivious

only heard of the dynamics after the fact.

i read something today, i think it was a horoscope or a message from the day's star's alignment. oh. i remember what it was: it was one of those tarot cards gif that shuffle and when you press the button that is your reading, and i got cambio perspectiva. -= change your perspective..and i see the lesson all through my life. dramas are neither mine nor mine to mind. all life is like a stage, just like valentino sang and folk have their character to play, and by character i mean their soul, their behaviors, their dysfunction, their ugly, or their beauty of attentiveness and conscience. that I dont have to keep thinking i am on the outside, cause i am not. i am getting my ass kicked cause i am the god damn sent center. my light shines so bright...and it was only this weekend i reflected on how i grew up with an attitude and chip on my shoulder cause all my life, where ever i went folk would stare at me. and that shit used to piss me off, If i only knew, I would have smiled more, been in the world different, but that too, they sent me to live, so it is what it is.. so yeah, changed perspectives. the shit people drop at your door, aint yours. it not even your door, It was their way out that they locked and shut. It was that proverbial - their shit sent to the fan., spewing back onto themselves. it is so amusing, it would be a comedy if we did not take it so seriously, so perhaps that is my larger lesson. this life is a comedy of human disproportions. nothing grand happening here. no journey. no purpose. no function. just utter futility. but folk think, they , their stuff, their shit matters, and it dont. mine neither. nothing matters. the only thing is choice.

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