Olympians of Our Own (Events)

there are so many great Caribbean stories at the Olympics this Rio 2016. And no one is covering it. A show would have been possible highlighting all the Caribbean Olympians, telling their stories. So many of them are first appearing for their countries. So many did not and will not make medals, but the story makes their appearance there all the more valiant. There are so many things we as a people could be doing, and among so many islands none of us are doing any of it. bereft we are. i find it so unbelievably pitiful and pathetic

Asange from Haiti made me realize that. reminded me of another young man from Suriname, a mere twenty one years old yet full of comportment.

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Then i wake up and switch on the tv, see some commercial, dont know for what, I was just taken with the shiny white images of the people. pristine, in light glare resistant expensive glasses, and crispy shirts, and it just reminded me of my former life, mainly in michigan. and reminded me of the lives we led in michigan, how it was my hey day heights, and i thought i was just getting started, but that was the end. then i thought of how others thought they too were in a life, and perhaps going to take off, but only put putted, the engine stuttering, and plummeting. twice, and now a third time, but this time it taking long. no longer in money to fix windshields, windows in cars, to organize a house in a matter of days, after you failed to do so for a month despite talks and promises and lies. and my life just to live, nothing spectacular., sans so much; the glasses I need, medicals I have not had in years, sneakers to exercise in if i chose to do that,

and life has changed so much< i dont see much rise from this downslide we are living in our separate lives, cause of our ages at this time and when opportunities come round again, they might be for others far younger. it is indeed an interesting time

listening in the news yesterday of energy companies "struggling to pay their bills" because of the downturn in energy prices to $48US$ a barrel, and i thought well what were you doing in the hey day of high prices. I have no sympathy. if it is one thing to teach your children is how to manage money, not for what you have but for conditions you dont see, so you shall always have. and not to take any debt unless you have mapped out to the very end and last payment how you will manage it stress free. without that, dont do it..

but the very thing i am saying not to do is the very way the world spins

i also realize trinidad had made me coarse, aggressive and with even more attitude. it is not a place where refinement survives.

morning thoughts.

last night on my way home i looked up at the moon, smelled the frangipani scenting the night, and remembered the last time I walked the full moon in trinidad, I thought it would be my last one for a long while. not knowing i was journeying along with its hide, just like it and me in my life, so much was to be revealed by the next time, yesterday, it appeared.

good morning