Thursday, January 17, 2013
Day 348 - What to Leave With/What to Leave Behind
Samaya my astrologist as it were, just got back to me about my inbox to her...
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the hands that kept and groomed that hair. know they not ordinary.
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"How pleasant it is for a father to sit at his child's board. It is like an aged man reclining under the shadow of an oak which he has planted."
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Day 348 - What to Leave With/What to Leave Behind
Samaya my astrologist as it were, just got back to me about my inbox to her...
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- Maven Huggins
Hey Samaya
Can you tell me what is going on?
just had a moment of giving up trying to work with anyone on manifesting the event
People who show up are revealing they may not be honest and forthcoming of who they are, what they are about, and events that occur...wondering how to go on...
Other people I approached arent responsive..no feedback after they promised and one now calling me days later when i asked her to be the face of the event
Trying to understand what to ignore, if to ignore or if these are just signs that these are not the folk
already the event is not being planned right now for no one has shown up or responded to be event manager/maker
wondering if i am hoping against the wind
give me some direction please
thanks - .
can the planets be aligned but it still not be time?
and is it that the planets are aligned for love for me? but not to be in business, make money, business relations?
can you tell if there is in fact a curse in my life as I have been told samaya? - Today
- Samaya ScorpionQueen Sims
A curse??? who told you that? if you are running into blocks then maybe it is not the right time....I have seen the planets align and still there were other factors that hindered someone from being successful at something....maybe it's just too last minute for people.....I mean an event of that magnitude should take months to plan if it's to be done the right way.... - Maven Huggins
no. i mixed up matters.
a few months ago an Indian card reader said I had a curse on my life. she said it was due to me sleepign with someone's husband. she said the curse was that nothing in my life would go right. not my career. no man would want me..
and Samaya. that has been my life.
things start but they fizzle soon
No man stays
She also told me never to look for female friends. women will hate me.
all the things she spoke. has been my life for a good three decades now. serious talk.
But i was wondering if that was her fuckedup life projections or if my planets were just not aligned, or if i came to live these experiences...and there is no curse.
But about the event, I merely wondered if the 'curse' was still having effects.
i am not sure what to think is the cause for my life/ if there need be a cause. i do know that i am and have been surrounded by blocks. nothing and no one good lasts. - .
Maven Huggins
she had said someone buried a picture of me in a cemetary...
and that it was a very powerful curse for to be equal to the powers about and of me... - Samaya ScorpionQueen Sims
I can't confirm or deny any curse....but you do have Venus in Aquarius and that is a karmic love life......however, your Aries Moon says that you are someone who wants everything RIGHT NOW! you have no patience....and that may be why things come and go quickly because your emotions are the same way....YOU get bored easily..... - .
Maven Huggins
i thought the story was bullshit Samaya. and even now i still do. as i sit here this moment. from early, in my 20s, in college, i have had bad luck with love. my highschool boyfriend was mad in love with me to the point that he was still bitching about me ditching him after high school just a few months ago. A Few months. ago. where i apologized to him for hurting him, damaging him. it took me that long to realize the fissure was deep cause every time i talked to him, that is all he would talk about. but boyfriends that I loved and got pregnant for, they neither wanted me or the baby, my college boyfriend never claimed me and went on to marry someone from before me...so i have never had it good in love.
but my career worked good for awhile and then it tanked and then just walls
But there are real explanations for this. when you are fire and brimstone. when you are so strong folk are intimidated, and then you live and act like you better than everyone else, your path is not going to be easy and that is what i see. but the inside is not warrior...but just a tenderhearted soul...so it is complex and hard all way round.
it is why i tell people they have to seer their own life, lives and lived stories
i was writing while you were...
i do. get bored . very easily. loleven before things get going
So it is these things I see as the reasons for my flailings..Flailings...
that and it is hard for me to find someone with the soul heart hand and courage power to contend with me...so guess what happens/ floating through life untethered, solo
------------------and it led me to write this in response: >
{earth wind and fire - the elements of carnival? >> it would be bemusing, wouldnt it, if after time it was revealed that carnival was about, connected to, the voodoo that hoodoo --the closest thing to emulating necromancy...slavesheepzombie.for a long time i saying so in different ways...when I look at how one person on a stage can control and instruct one massive crowd and they move and shift like one.}
in other news, i was really coming to tell you to "break your own code" figure out what is going on internally. deconstruct your psychology and dysfunctions. that way charlatans and the perplexed can come and tell you any bullshit.
stay up zimbabwe
it might be done for me now. the best i may hope to do is have pikney to guide them past and through my milieu...but then i pause and wonder why...and i answer perhaps it would be to leave something done and accomplished. to grow a girlchild with good healthy head of natural hair who knows of her inherent power and mission by that power never traded, compromised, sold or negotiated. or a boy child who has come to resurrect the male specie characterization. and then so beyond myself, and maybe if i am more lucky: for that pikney to pick up the seeds of work that I left off and manifest and expand into things you can hold in your hand : books, film, them. I dont know. me or the cosmos will decide?
stay up they say zimbabwe
the hands that kept and groomed that hair. know they not ordinary.
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"How pleasant it is for a father to sit at his child's board. It is like an aged man reclining under the shadow of an oak which he has planted."
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Technocratix Tobago: "i hope your books of these musings will be as inspirational to younger generations as these posts are to me."
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