"...I cant
resist..since you went christian and took me there, let me share with
you a wondrous thing...I had a female christian pastor mentor mother
sister. Her name was Rev Dr. Linda H. Hollies. You should google her and
purchase all her books. She is deceased now. But she was my first
experience of a feminist pastor or a feminist reading of christian
scriptures and it was oh such a magnificent thing. You should google,
though I never did to see if any of her sermons were recorded. to hear
her tell it: But one of her central thesis was that "God Never Did
Nothing without a Womb or Woman...and she cited scripture. of Mary,
Elizabeth? the one who was there when Jesus rose resurrected... Esther,
Ruth and some others... It was phenomenal..
not only respected redeemed and embraced, Women were God's messengers. They were the first ones he revealed Himself to and then she relayed and gather the others, the men.":
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i read over a comment i wrote on a thread on feminism and I see how powerful my nexus. my both grandmothers. were named context the bible"
Maria and Ruth/
what more and else could people want with me.
The other huge thing that hits me rereading my writing is to possibly take up the mantle of where
Rev Dr. Linda H. Hollies left off. I wonder who has come after her?
I remember how from since I got baptized in Alabama, to my journeys in Michigan, in various churches; various Baptist churches and houses, and the United Church of Christ...folk always thought, spoke and said to me "you have a calling on your life to preach the scriptures"
if they knew and heard it , I never did, so I was never so moved.
Likewise how I am in Trinidad and people tell me there is a calling by the ancestors and deities to "give my head". The implication is to Orisa. I myself clearly see and claim Oshun, Yemaya/Yemoja, Oya. I even had a white babalawao give me a reading and he told me I was the same: A Babalawao.
Women are not babalawao. Unless they are as ancient as the earth and just that powerful.
I have had people manifest in my presence to give me said messages. my own cousin said of me in my hearing: "who she, she will be the biggest obeah woman of port of spain"
but only today< i think, i should preach the word. I am really good at it. I am knowledgeable of the bible, the various books; i even have several favorites.
I even learned a new skill in recent years, since 2013: writing personalized individual prayers.
Interpreting the word too and integrating global and indigenous knowledge that predated the romans...and even gathering up the work and hands of our predates and ancestors. I think there is a new space to explore and no one better to do it than moi.
the mix of the sacred and the profane and doing it with a glass of wine. and then adding the feminine mystique magickal sacred! omg. who else has been called, with that trunk of tools and capabilities?
Hm. and why am i writing this when the yellowhead tied tignoned nubian stares my way, past my writing, off into the future and the distance, as if the very woman who would take this charge , i posted, she is looking on, guiding the journey beyond
Sigh.
Makeda replies to my post above:
"Oh I love your contribution Maven heart emoticon"
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i think further:
there is a wealth of things, sources, fountains, mines of gold and platinum withinside me, and I am lagging, dont know how to turn, place myself to give birth to any of it.
If i asked you today to help me save the life of a fetus, would you?
would you give the mother the money to be healthy and care for herself and the child for the next seven months, to cover the birth and the months to stability to where the infant can travel to us here in Trinidad. I offered the mother to house and care and raise and love and mother the child where she will forever have access and integration...but I havent a dime for her right now
Speaking of women of the bible, women of god, the womb as voice and vehicle of god..Just saying. no pressure, just facts.
wow
So much before me:
mother identity. motherhood. pastormother. the word. the art of the word. the art of the wood.
sacred feminine. integrator of paths
do you know how and why i started writing this post?
watching a special on bbc on french politics and saying to myself -a future i want to be and have is as a french speaker...then i thought of all the other forms I am yet to take. there you have it.
the Universal Sacred Nubia/
not only respected redeemed and embraced, Women were God's messengers. They were the first ones he revealed Himself to and then she relayed and gather the others, the men.":
---------------
i read over a comment i wrote on a thread on feminism and I see how powerful my nexus. my both grandmothers. were named context the bible"
Maria and Ruth/
what more and else could people want with me.
The other huge thing that hits me rereading my writing is to possibly take up the mantle of where
Rev Dr. Linda H. Hollies left off. I wonder who has come after her?
I remember how from since I got baptized in Alabama, to my journeys in Michigan, in various churches; various Baptist churches and houses, and the United Church of Christ...folk always thought, spoke and said to me "you have a calling on your life to preach the scriptures"
if they knew and heard it , I never did, so I was never so moved.
Likewise how I am in Trinidad and people tell me there is a calling by the ancestors and deities to "give my head". The implication is to Orisa. I myself clearly see and claim Oshun, Yemaya/Yemoja, Oya. I even had a white babalawao give me a reading and he told me I was the same: A Babalawao.
Women are not babalawao. Unless they are as ancient as the earth and just that powerful.
I have had people manifest in my presence to give me said messages. my own cousin said of me in my hearing: "who she, she will be the biggest obeah woman of port of spain"
but only today< i think, i should preach the word. I am really good at it. I am knowledgeable of the bible, the various books; i even have several favorites.
I even learned a new skill in recent years, since 2013: writing personalized individual prayers.
Interpreting the word too and integrating global and indigenous knowledge that predated the romans...and even gathering up the work and hands of our predates and ancestors. I think there is a new space to explore and no one better to do it than moi.
the mix of the sacred and the profane and doing it with a glass of wine. and then adding the feminine mystique magickal sacred! omg. who else has been called, with that trunk of tools and capabilities?
Hm. and why am i writing this when the yellowhead tied tignoned nubian stares my way, past my writing, off into the future and the distance, as if the very woman who would take this charge , i posted, she is looking on, guiding the journey beyond
Sigh.
Makeda replies to my post above:
"Oh I love your contribution Maven heart emoticon"
----------------------
i think further:
there is a wealth of things, sources, fountains, mines of gold and platinum withinside me, and I am lagging, dont know how to turn, place myself to give birth to any of it.
If i asked you today to help me save the life of a fetus, would you?
would you give the mother the money to be healthy and care for herself and the child for the next seven months, to cover the birth and the months to stability to where the infant can travel to us here in Trinidad. I offered the mother to house and care and raise and love and mother the child where she will forever have access and integration...but I havent a dime for her right now
Speaking of women of the bible, women of god, the womb as voice and vehicle of god..Just saying. no pressure, just facts.
wow
So much before me:
mother identity. motherhood. pastormother. the word. the art of the word. the art of the wood.
sacred feminine. integrator of paths
do you know how and why i started writing this post?
watching a special on bbc on french politics and saying to myself -a future i want to be and have is as a french speaker...then i thought of all the other forms I am yet to take. there you have it.
the Universal Sacred Nubia/
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today, this day: Saturday New Aries Moon April 18, 2015
a sister on my page wrote on a thread: "I am getting an abortion today"
well...here is how that followed>
Maven Huggins
I had two abortions. when i was 23 and 25. two different daddies, both did not want the child. one was a boyfriend. I never wanted to be a single mother and surely not one where the father denied them.
It was the worst decisions and greatest regrets of my life. of many
i am no 50, but look 37 or so, wish for children and dont even have sex regurlarly to make it happen;
I would keep your baby if I could but i am far, cant help now.
Is there any other way? What made you tell me that? and put it out in public. I am amused kind of...the shock of it all. But i believe women have the right to make their own calls, it is just sometimes it comes as huge regrets, and possibly curses.
my first pregnancy was my brother coming back to my family after he had died, a mere four months difference. I was told by seers that he put a curse on my life for me aborting him. I am not sure what to believe but my life sure did get crazy in 2002 and since then it has never really recovered.
After the abortions I had a dream telling me the babies were boys, the first one name was Junia that was the spelling int eh dream and Vincent was the last.
I was confused for years . Until I moved back to my trinidad where I am now and learned, some people spell Junior Junia. and it is a name. Well. my brother was Junior, a Junior. Anthony Huggins Jr.
And Vincent was his god brother!! White Italians from brooklyn!!!!!
why i was given that dream after and not before I do not know. It was my cross I gather. I wonder too the import and purpose for people outside myself.
If I could i really would ask you to let me have this one. You make this baby for me..
but i dont have the means to back that up. Sigh
i thought to share a picture of me with you the first one is from 2013/14. the next two from 2013. the last two is what i look like now...the next to last was about feb 20. the last is about three weeks ago.
Maven Huggins
it is your gift. fertility. do not kill it. do not curse it. and change your mind about it.
you are talking but spirit and universe have bestowed you. dont turn your back on itthe profile pic, is that your belly now?
Safiyah Mirsberger
nopelast pregnancy
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"i wish i could gather a small coven of men and women right now. today
the purpose of which is to save a soul and her/his/its mother
all of us becoming parents to this child
committing to her and her mother forever
without lapse or tire
to take her to and through
accompanied
safiyah. sapphire.
and i realize I dont even have the gift of my own birthmother
to make and create out of the cosmos, just like god, a name for the first time ever
all these years of listing names for children, I never have. what a thing
i think i would name that child Sapphire though and wish it were more novel or first time
#standinginthegap"
and i realize I dont even have the gift of my own birthmother
to make and create out of the cosmos, just like god, a name for the first time ever
all these years of listing names for children, I never have. what a thing
i think i would name that child Sapphire though and wish it were more novel or first time
#standinginthegap"
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